Smiling and being upbeat is my trademark, passing along joy and the message of Christ. I work with mostly Jews in a law firm and some non believers and two believers but not strong walking, just acknowledging Christ when probed. I stand firm like a beacon and people come to me for prayer. This week has been a wrestling match. I have felt very overcast. Lots to contend with but I know the answers and will work them out. I have before. I have had a son die in the delivery room, a husband take his life a month after baptism and my other son shoot himself ten months later at the age of twenty one after years of attending church and doing missionary work. I have one son left, he got three girls pregnant in the span of five months and they three granddaughters all are five now and in kindergarten but we only get to be with the one, as he married her mom. All this and I have managed to smile but going through some other issues that are not as crazed and I am just worn out. I know when my defenses seem low to call on sisters and brothers to pray with me, I don't ride the wave alone anyway, because I know Christ is there, but I prefer to have others battle with me and seek prayer warriers early on.
Thanks for the kindness...off to work now. juanita
