I'm a little bit emotional right now. My instructor called us in one by one. When she called me in, she said do you know what you've just done? I just sat there. LOL. She said the class started out with 19, only 4 graduated...that in itself was a major feat. Then she said " But, with going to class and working, you graduated with an "A"..........oh man, I teared up!
I was second in the class, beat out of first by one percentage point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am hardest on myself, and immediately started beating myself up for that......well, the beating myself up is over, hehehehehe......I worked and did this, my "A" is sufficient :)
I want to thank all of y'all for your support and prayers..........WE DID IT!!!!!!!!! Thank YOU, LORD for the prayer warriors and encouragers on MC, thank YOU, LORD for giving me strength, thank YOU, LORD for Ken who is my biggest supporter (without his love and support, both physically and emotionally, I couldn't have done this)
MC family...........I love you soooooooooooooooooo.
Ken.......I love you and I thank God for you in my life
My life is hectic right now. School, work and family. Today, I had to take a down day. I want to share with you about my job (if you can call it that).
The first night I worked was very emotional for me. You see, I have not done complete care on anyone since the day my dad went home to heaven. Each man I cared for became dad, and I cared for them with teary eyes, it was a healing that was long overdue.
Where I work is about 4 minutes from my home, so I have known most of the residents all my life. I was allowed to go visit all that I knew and let them know that I was going to be spending the night with them (that's what I call it). I got alot of "Oh MY Lord, Cindy!" and it felt good. The hugs and kisses felt even better, hehehehe.
The second morn, right before my shift was over, here comes a little lady rolling down a hall I wasn't working on in her wheelchair, hollering "Where's that sweet little Hewitt girl?????". Sighhhhhhhhh, tears again. You see, once upon a time, many years ago, she and I worked together :)
The blessing to be able to help someone in the middle of the night, to give them comfort and a kiss on the forehead and watch their sleepy smile as they drift back off to sleep, it's just simply amazing.
The second morning that I came home, Ken was up and we talked a little while and I cried. I had done this kind of work for many years and swore I'd never go back. But, as I sat and talked with him the tears overflowed, a sweet release. He smiled and said, "I knew this was where you needed to be, but wasn't going to push you. It had to be your decision.....Cindy, it's not a job for you, it's a calling." Wow, what an eye opener from Ken, he doesn't speak alot about serious stuff, but when he does, listen...right Sugg?
I will graduate next Friday, then state boards probably within three weeks. Besides school 3 days a week, I've worked three days, done 27 online homework lessons from where I work, made an A on midterms, done lotsa homework for school. During that time, two periods of NO sleep for 27 hours.... tomorrow I will do another 27 hour no sleep (school then work) and next Wednesday I'll do it again. So today, my system says rest....and I will.
In our online homework that my job requires, my first assignment was a video like this......Kleenex alert!!!!!!!
I love you all and covet and appreciate your prayers...your prayers have gotten me through this so far......God bless you!
I was at school today when I guess there were some comments made on Bubba's blog. I didn't get to see them, since Bubba seems to be gone now with his blogs. But since I was a part of the ministry at one time I would like to say some things.
First, anyone who read Bubba's blog about the ministry being over and done with, found out the same way I did. This was how a man who could call me 6 times a day and even during my granddaughter's birthday party chose to let me know. When I messaged him if that was the right way to treat someone, he tried telling me that I knew the ministry was over (geeee, I guess that's why I posted a blog at HIS request two days prior about the CD's and the ministry)and then the excuse became that he called me three times. Well, that ended me conversing with him at all. Why? Because he had all three of our phone #'s and every phone either has caller ID or it shows missed calls......there were none :(
Within a week, the ministry was back....hmmmm. Did anyone on here notice that it was minus Cindy?????? NOT only was the ministry back but with many shows booked......hmmmm. Are you catching on??????? Very few questioned me about what happened? Let's see, I'd been on here close to a year at the time, and he'd been on here a month. Quite honestly, that hurt.
I'll just say that I feel like we were all taken, our discernment was down. I also feel guilty and have been told I should have no guilt. What is my feeling of guilt? If it were just me hurt in all this....it would be nothing. I've been hurt before and I'm still going, always relying on God to take care of those who use me or whatever. And He does. But, I was part of that ministry, and other people getting hurt kills me. I understand I wasn't the one who did wrong....but still it hurts me.
To Steve if you read this: How you did me as a manager was not the godly way to do a sister in Christ, but I forgive you. If there is some reason you couldn't get the CD's out to the people, then PLEASE let them know, they are very understanding people. If you never intended to send those CD's out, then I leave you in God's hands and I pray for you.
The last two days have been awesome! I've spent it with Ken, 2 sons, 2 daughters n love, ALL six grandkids, my mom, my sis, daughter n love's two brothers, and daughter n love's mom and stepdad. Both days were culinary skills throw downs, hehehehe, our family ALL loves to cook.....foods ranged from ribs and chicken with homemade dry rubs, to shrimp boiled and scampi, to bacon explosion, to strawberry cobbler.....to the strangest food made by oldest son, smoked eggs!
Ken and Ryan had made an evap system to cool the pool down, it had been 96 degrees, welllllllllllllll, it worked a little toooooooooooo good.....the pool was between 80 and 82!
Also, on Friday morn I got my call for work, I'll be filling in till school is over then I'll have full time on 3rd shift....we're soooooooooo excited, thank You Lord!
Friday night ended for Ken and me about 10 pm watching the grandchildren in a pool contest, where they dove with floating pool lights for little men thrown in the pool......it looked like a feeding frenzy of piranhas :)
Yesterday, it started a beautiful day. My oldest cooked breakfast for EVERYONE! Aebleskivers! He and my other son are praying about doing a business with these........oh man, they're awesome!!!!
We go out to the pool, the clouds start boiling and a huge storm rolls in for over an hour :( When it's through, everyone is back in the coldddddddddddd pool, and the thunder starts again. So, me, daughter n love's brother and three grandbabies, being the silly people we are, do a rain dance around the pool, singing at the top of our lungs.....then we have to do a cloud dance ( the grandkids loved it!). And the sun came back out.
Our favorite song to sing was one our 3 yr old granddaughter learned in Bible School.........
I would say "Give me a J!" and she would say " You got tha J, You got tha J!"
Give me an E! You got the E, You got the E! Give me an S! You got tha S, You got the S! Give me a U! You got tha U, you got tha U! Give me a S! You got the S, you got tha S! What does that Spell????? JESUS! JESUS! ( once she ended with You got the spell, you got the spell, hehehehe)
Then more food....we had so much, we invited the neighbors over, LOL
Finally, the grand finale!!!!! Let me explain that this is my fav holiday....it's once a year that my boys are little boys again!
Many beautiful fireworks.....big fireworks. Every year people on our end of town watch our fireworks from their yards....and each year it gets bigger. Well, two granddaughters are scared of fireworks and sit in laps, one wears ear plugs. She was in my lap with the other one on her mom right beside me. It started raining again, so our chairs were moved under the carport. Two shot cannons were being fired......very pretty. But one misfired on the second shot. It propelled sideways hit the front of son's house and bounced off it right into us on the carport! It was coming so quick all I could see was blue light and couldn't get up fast enough to get away from it, because I had the 3 year old in my lap. Daughter n love pushed the 6 year old and told her to run.....she ran right to the other side of me and stood screaming. I threw up my leg to protect the one in my lap and wrapped myself around her, and with that shielded the one standing beside me......and got hit. I have two good sized burns on my back upper thigh where it exploded on me. But, God was there with His angels, neither granddaughter got touched. As soon as I felt the explosion on my leg I grab them up and run, handing them to people to take in the house and check them. I do remember the boys and Ken saying "Are you hurt, are you hurt???" At that time it didn't matter, I wanted my grandbabies safe and unharmed! God protected them! The littlest thought she got hit in the eye, but it was actually me slamming my hand over her face to protect it. Everyone was a little shaken...of course. I guess you're asking if the fireworks were a safe distance away from us? YES. It was a freak accident. This happened at a fireworks show a few years ago not far from us.
What's my point to this, other than telling our 4th and adventure?
I quickly protected my grandchildren....they were allllllllllllll I thought about while it was happening! The burns I got are minor to what hell will be like.......are we spiritually teaching and protecting our family from the worse that could happen......burning in hell?????? Sure, it was automatic instinct of a grandmother to protect them from physical danger, but in that train of thought it should be automatic instinct as a christian to protect and teach our family spiritually, to save them from eternal burning. Yes, you will face rejection, just like I got burned, but burns heal and you start all over!
As far as our family.........WE GOT THE J, WE GOT THE J, WE GOT THE E, WE GOT THE E, WE GOT THE S, WE GOT THE S, WE GOT THE U, WE GOT THE U, WE GOT THE S, WE GOT THE S!
For many years I worked in the health field as an aide. I worked in a nursing home, home health and hospice. Through that experience I found where God placed my heart to work on this earth. You see, all of my grandparents had gone home to Heaven by the time I was 13. They taught me sooooooo much in the few years I had with them, yet I missed out on so much.
When the health field in home health declined, I pursued other jobs, even went to college for a business degree! But when Ken and I remarried, he gave me the option of doing something I had never gotten to do, just be a wife. I loved it.
I was able to care for dad, mom and Ken. The administration of the nursing home kidded me that I had my own setup going. I was so blessed and thankful to Ken for the opportunity to get to take care of Dad, it was a time that Dad and I really bonded. Ken said that God intended for me to be alone with Dad when he passed, because of my christianity, unselfishness and hospice experience. I would be the one strong enough to let him go home. And I did. Ken, thank you so much for standing by me and supporting me through that time. I love you!
The nursing home was kind enough to supply me with things I needed for dad, such as an air bed! And they even had someone bring it to us and set it up for me! This is the kind of people they are :)
When Dad passed and I went to take the stuff back, the administrator told me it was time to come back to work, they needed me and Dad was gone now. I told him I wasn't ready, but someday I would be.
Since Ken's disability, finances have been cut in over half. That's hard. So, someday is now :)
I think back on all that God used me for through my work in this field. I help my elderly neighbors, my family, and I was led to start a vital sign ministry in the church many years ago. I took vitals every Wednesday night, charted them and when the people went for their doctor's visits, I gave them a card with their month's vitals on it. It was awesome!
satan tried to deal me a blow the night before I started school. I laid in bed and cried, because satan was putting doubts into my mind of whether I did my best for Dad. I started singing praise choruses to myself and went to sleep. I know satan does not want me doing this.
I will be taking 90 hours of class between yesterday and July 24, when I will graduate and then state testing within three weeks of that. Plus I will be able to legally start working on Thursday. Wheeeeeewwwww full load for a month. I cannot do that by myself, I am totally depending on God to get me through it. Afterall, He has brought me back to where my heart is on this earth....I guess you'd call it my calling :) I will again have the ministy of touch, hugs, and talk to allllllllllllllllll those grandparents I missed out on growing up! Thank You Lord.
My heart feels good!!!!!! Also, this is the safest place for me to work with Ken having MS, less chance of catching stuff and bringing it home to him :)
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