i'm having my thyroid removed monday. i'm a little nervous so everyones prayers would b greatly appreciated. but a cool thing is the hospitla im stayong in has a link where you can send patients cards. so if you want to send me a card click this/ copy it into ur browser https://www.uch.edu/your-visit/gifts-and-greetings/cheercards/index.aspx and the hospital will print it out and give it to me. p.s u have to do it on monday or tuesday b4 3pm. (mountain time...which is 2 hours b4 eastern time)
So I just started Americorps NCCC Feb 4th (and I turned 21). I looooove it. Its so beautiful here. Everybody kept telling me but it really is something you have to see for yourself. So far we've jus been training. As far as community service goes I've done two small projects. First we went around to local businesses to talk to to them about removing graffitti from their buidings. the city does it for free and it supposed to help reduce gang violence. Then today I did some gardening in a city park. I had fun with both projects and I'm looking forward to working directly with people a little more. We are in Denver until March 3rd until we find out our next project. Sixty percent of us are being sent to the gulf for katrina relief. I really want to go down there but I might be staying here for a while because I need to have surgry on my thyroid soon.I'm having so much fun. Everyone here is really nice, really open minded. I'm excited about working with these people.
I can already tell 2008 is gonna b a great year. I mean after 2007 it just has to get better. I thank God for everday of my life but honestly from Jan 1 to Dec 31 was a struggle. I shouldnt be here to tell it. I definitely shouldnt be feeling as good as I do right now. People say it all the time but I mea it when I say I've never felf better.
07 started off bad because I had I had to drop out of school for the second time. I was so dissapointed and the same day I had to come home I found out my brother was sick wich took al ot out of me. Because anybody that knows me knows that me and my brother r joined at the hip lol. U hardly ever see one of us with out the other. my dad was really sick also. Then there was the situation w/ my best friend n her baby. I was just trying to escape depression the whole entire year. And God knows by Decemebr I was worn out.
I remember some servie I went to at church and bishop said to write down soemthing that you wanted God to bless you with. All I wanted was a way for me to be able to geo back to school and afford to stay n graduated . I just figured if I can just get back to school everything would flow from there. I still have that paper in my wallet and God is working it out. Im going to Americorps feb 4th and they give you money for school.
All my life I wanted to be a doctor but I never imagined it would be this hard. Like i expected hard studying and maybe even hard finances. But I never thought so many things would become obstacles. I know God must have something great instore for me.
Right now though I just want to tell the world how good my God is. He's kept me through a rough yea and allowed me to come out so glamorously. I'm supposed to look crazy...a mess. But dont I look better than I feel. Better than what I been going through.
God took care of all my needs and took it step further. On top of my new job and my family's health he also got rid of some bad realtionships. Now all the people I deal with are blessings to me and not burdens.
God is just moving so dramatically in my life right now. Im excited about his plans for me. I just cant thank God enough for waht hes doing in my life.
My best friend Candice just had a baby October 9th 2007. She just called me today October 18, and told me the baby died. She didnt want to talk and she was really torn up. Candice has been my best friend for 11 years and I've never heard that much pain in her voice. I didnt know what to say. Should I keep calling her...or should I give her some space. I wish I could give her a hug...but she lives in Washington state. Its tearing me up that I feel like I cant do anything for her. I know I can pray for her but its hard for me right now. On the phone I was crying jus as much as she was. So everybody that reads this please pray for my best friend Candice. This was her first baby. And if you have any words of encouragement that you think I could share with her let me know. Or maybe one of you might have been in a similar situation.
I just know that this hurts. I was so excited about being a godmother.
Never would have made it, never could have made it, without you I would have lost it all, but now I see how you were there for me
And I can say Never would have made it, Never could have made it, Without you
I would have lost it all, But I now how I see how you were there for me and I can say I'm stronger, I'm wiser, I'm better, much better,
When I look back over all you brought me thru. I can see that you were the one that I held on to And I never Chorus Never would have made it
Oh I never could have made it Chorus Never could have made it without you
Oh I would have lost it all, oh but now I see how you were there for me
I never Chorus - Never would have made it
No, I never Chorus - Never could have made it without you
I would have lost my mind a long time ago, if it had not been for you. I am stronger Chorus – I am stronger
I am wiser Chorus – I am wiser
Now I am better Chorus – I am better
So much better Chorus – I am better
I made it thru my storm and my test because you were there to carry me thru my mess
I am stronger Chorus – I am stronger
I am wiser Chorus – I am wiser
I am better Chorus – I am better
Anybody better Chorus – I am better
I can stand here and tell you, I made it. Anybody out there that you made it
I am stronger Chorus – I am stronger
I am wiser Chorus – I am wiser
I am better Chorus – I am better
Much better Chorus – I am better
I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it, I made it
And I never would have made it Chorus Never would have made it
Never could have made it Chorus Never could have made it without you
I would have lost my mind, I would have gave up, but you were right there, you were right there
I never Chorus Never would have made it
Oh I never Chorus - I never could have made it without you.
Someone need to testify next to them and tell them I am stronger, I am wiser, I am better, much better. When I look back over what he brought me thru. I realize that I made it because I had you to hold on to, now I am stronger, now I am wiser, I am better, so much better. I made it. Is there anybody in this house other than me that can declare that you made it. Tell your neighbor, never would have made it. Never would have made it. Never could have made it. Never could have made it without you. Never would have made it. Never would have made it. Never could have made it. Never could have made it without you
