Right now, I?m feeling a little lost. I read the Bible and am amazed at how loudly and clearly God works in the lives of the people in those stories. I long to be able to experience God as they did.

Instead, I feel stuck. I feel like there might be something big waiting for me, but I don?t have the strength or knowledge to get there. I feel like my prayers about it have fallen on deaf ears.

Maybe I am not meant to know until it?s happening. Life is a mystery. I just don?t know what my mystery is. All I know is that right now I don?t feel okay. I want okay to be here.