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4:19 And my God shall supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.
This month has brought challenges to my faith for sure. Jonathan's big robotics competition was in Auburn last weekend (the 7th and 8th).
On December 1st, I figured out our monthly budget for December and realized there was *no* way we could go to Auburn to be with him. There wasn't even going to be enough this month for much of anything. The day I did the budget, the kids were with there dad. I was all set to tell the kids Saturday evening (when they came home from their dads) that we were not going to be able to go.
However, my parents called and invited me to meet them for lunch. While at lunch, they gave me a check and said they wanted to pay for our trip to Auburn.
At first I was ecstatic -- realizing that God had provided for us to go to Auburn. However, then my lack of faith kicked in and I thought, "No - I need to hang on to that money - we will need it for other things." I wrestled with that all afternoon. On one hand it appeared that God was providing for our trip, but at the same time, my lack of faith was leading me to hang on to that money for later.
Well, my faith won (Praise God!) and I did not have to tell the children we weren't going -- and we did go. It was a great time to be there supporting Jonathan and the school.
However, once we came home, the reality hit -- I second guessed myself about having gone. I was afraid I had made a mistake by not holding on to that money. So.... all I could do was pray.... I just told God that He knew my needs, and I asked Him to provide.
From that point on, I have had an amazing calmness and my faith has remained strong through this -- fully believing that He will provide, but not sure how He was going to do it.
When my door bell rang this afternoon, I assumed it was one of Hannah's friends coming to play. My house was a wreck (because I had napped from 12:00 - 1:45 and then came straight to my office to work). I am fighting a head cold and feel like death warmed over. I opened the door and to my surprise Pastor Norm was standing there with a card for our family. He handed it to me and left. -I don't think he wanted my cruddy germs-. I went back to my office, sat down, opened it and cried. The Lord had provided again. He is so good to me. I sometimes feel so unworthy of His provision.
Thank you to those of you who had a part in being used by God to bless me and my family. It has been a lesson to all of us. I have been honest with my children in explaining that money was very tight this month, but that I knew God would provide. |
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