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1:4 In him was life; and the life was the light of men. 1:5 And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not. 1:6 There was a man sent from God, whose name [was] John. 1:7 The same came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all [men] through him might believe. 1:8 He was not that Light, but [was sent] to bear witness of that Light. 1:9 [That] was the true Light, which lighteth every man that cometh into the world.
W W
This has such meaning to me!!!
I lived in darkness almost all my life! I always believed in God, went to sunday school when I was a kid at The First Presbyterian Church of Parsippany. I remember going to Christmas service as a family and some time on special sundays us kids were allowed to stay for the whole service. I loved Jesus so much. I even went to school in that church for 2 years.
Around when I was 5 something drastic happened to me, something i didnt understand. I didnt understand why Jesus was letting these things happen to me. I thought becasue I was a bad girl that these things were happening and Jesus was teaching me a lesson..But even if he was I loved Jesus. I loved my bible and still have that first bible.
As time went on I stopped going to that church, at age 16, and started to explore other churches. I was so confussed by this time about religion and what was happening to me at home. What was wrong with me and how angry I became. I was drinking already, I started drugging & drinking when I was 9, my older brother started me out, to get his way. he would babysit me and my brother. I liked how the drugs and alcohol made me feel numb.
I was going to Bible study at age 17 , drunk. I wanted so to feel Jesus , to feel something other then darkness.
I got married at age 18 and left home, thinking all would change, problem was I took me with me. I lived in such total darkness. I didnt return to church, instead i continued to drink my life away. I had 2 sons by the time I was 25 and although I didnt drink or drug during the pregnacy I drank as soon as I was released from the hospital. I wanted both my sons to be Baptised, although I had no church, so I went back to Parsippany Presbyterian and had them baptised there. I did eventually join a church wher we lived, when my sons were 3 & 5. Also a presbyterian church. I didnt feel the same about God or Jesus. I knew they were always with me, as I should have been dead. We attended church for 2 years, if that, till we Started our family business and we had to work Sundays. ( I also tryed to stop drinking and went to Alcoholics anonymous. which made my darkness engulf me!!!!) That was the end of Church, God & Jesus for my Kids ( something I am not proud of and so wish we stayed in church, but I cant go back I can only show them by example today).
My life was a mess. I was seeking outside myself for love that i never knew. I was commiting sins left & right. I broke so many commandments, it saddens me. But the darkness had its hold on me.
It wasnt untill 1999 that I finally found some HOPE. Took me a few years to find that God again, although I had a better understanding of him. I worked the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, plus read many self help books. Some even pointed me to the Bible. Alot of the big book is taken from the Bible. Well so many things came about in the last 8 and half years in my life. I turned my whole life around 4 years ago. I turned back to God, asking for forgiveness and found some peace, finally!!! My dad became very ill and ended in hospital for ayear and I had to live with my mom, who I found out had parkinsons. ( I grew up in a house of denial) I literly had to do everything for my mom during this time. ( What a humbling experience, I am grateful for today!!) We had to go to the hospital, then after care. By the time my dad got home, I finally said something to him about mom. Who was getting worse. I PRAYED so much at this time. I truly believe in the power of Prayer, as my dad almost died and I got on my knees in the hospotal and Prayed, poured my heart out. My dad lived.
So During this year , change was happening. My dad and I had a new relationship>>some darkness slipped away. My husband and I found a new relationship, more darkness slipped away. God was apart of my daily life. I prayed when i got up , during the day and at night. Always thanking Him for all that was changing in my life, as i knew it was NONE OF MY DOING!!. I so wanted to go back to church, but knew I could not go back to the one I went to as I didn't believe in the poltics that was going on there. I bought a new bible and started to read it, and also online I found sites about the bible . I have 2 close friends that have the faith i do, today. One is my best friend I grew up with, who been a faithful Christian all her life and wonderful example to me and the other i met online 9 years ago, and we both have turned our life over to Jesus and have become ven closer . I am so grateful to them both and all who have come into my life this past year.
Well,we moved this past summer to our dream place, down the shore. We live in a 55 and older community , which is so awesome!!! My husband had to retire early due to a injury he recieved in 1999. I have health issues and can only work part time, although I am currently not working. The cost of living here is cheap! I know in my heart this is Gods work. I prayed on all this and trusted the process. I never get what i want, but i always get what i need!!!
SO I prayed for God to lead me to a Church and He did!! I found a wonderful church and it is in walking distance. Whiting Bible Church. I have already learned so much and have come so much closer to God & Jesus. I have NO DARKNESS in my life today!!!!
I do have so much to be thankful for. Yes we have issues going on in our families, but I trust Him and have lots of hope & Pray. Life is wonderful!!!!!!
Thank you all who are such an example to me on this site.
I am also grateful for www.jcfaith.com , which is a christian site. If you told me 8 and half years ago I be living this awesome life , I would havent believed it possible. BUT with God ALL things are possible!!!
The Light shines!!! in my life today!!!!
God Bless you all
and jeeeezz thanks all who read this, I guess God is working and it was time for me to give my testomony!! 
Love ,Blessings and much Peace be with you
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| December 26, 2007 |
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| God bless you, Donna! He is awesome! |
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| December 26, 2007 |
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| It is always fascinating to read testimonies of how people found God and gave their lives to him. Thanks for sharing, and bringing him glory! ~mike |
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| December 26, 2007 |
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| Thank you so much for opening your heart to us. God is awesom and is love is unlimited. I will pray for you and your family. God Bless You. |
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