Why is it that when we know what we are suppose to be doing its different then what we are doing? (Do that make sense)

Ya know what comes to my mind is this scripture right here!

Romans 7:18 For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. I can will what is right, but I cannot perform it. [I have the intention and urge to do what is right, but no power to carry it out.]

Thats from the amplified bible. As the new year approaches, I finds myself examine life situation that I know that I need to do better. And asking am I on the the path to recieve the promises that God has provided in scriptures. But it appears that I am not doing what I need to do.  I am putting this out there because we all have struggles and shortcomings. And I know I need to step up to the plate. I willingly  admit today that I am powerless and I need God's  help to get me through this !

I have taken relatetionship for granted. I sheldom reached out to anyone concerning anything about what I am feeling, thinking or believing for that matter. Keeping my emotions inward has become so common in my that it became a stronghold. No one has allowed in. And I hid as much as i could from love ones and friends. No one knew what I was going through.

Yet, above  all this introversion. God still calling my name. To preach the gospel and lead many to know Christ.  That is easier said than done. I know Gods loves me. But how can witness to people when crowds makes  me paralyzing nervous. Or to show people the love of God when I want to avoid people.

If God call to do this. Then He knows that I can.