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You ever look at your self in the mirror and wonder why? wonder how? Wonder if you would have, could have, didn't do that if things would be different? Its hard to believe that you are sitting right here, right now, this is not how you invisioned it. How much things would have been different if you would have choosen differently?
I am not perfect. I hate people who tell me that I try so hard to be perfect. I am not perfect. l am quiet, and shy, love to hear and talk all about you, never about me. I am a child of the living God. I am who I am because God allowed me to be all I can be. I am smart, beautiful, and worth getting to know. But the truth is its hard. Its hard to really get to know me. Its hard to know that my favorite color is green, and that I have a strong passion for missions. Its hard to know that I have dreams and hopes still, after facing the truth. That I can tell you all about the God I serve, that I can give you a few books that I have of sermons that I will never use. I dont want to use them. God allowed me to write them, inspired them, plain as day... for what reason??? I dont know. Time will tell. Its about facing the truth, What did God put me here for? I would like to think its because I have pulled a few people from pits, been a part of the lives of kids all over this world, showed unconditional love to those who never knew it. Taught kids to seek God first then go forth into the world. I would like to think that some part of me has made an impact on someones life. I have made them smile, made them laugh, and made some cry. I have raised more kids than I gave birth to. When I leave this Earth I will meet the God I serve. I am fearful, I have made mistakes, I have sinned, I am not perfect. I understand forgiveness, but I am human. Facing the truth is a hard fact of life. Some do it early in life, we look both back and forward in our lives to see it all. Although we can not predict the future we can make better decisions based on the truth that we are gonna die, and we are gonna leave this world with what ever effected those around us. Thats the truth, What are we doing to effect the people who are in our lives before we die? Some look back from their death beds and think what could I have done, what did I do? When will you do it? Thats completely up to you, thats another truth, we may never know when our last breathe will be. It maybe tonight, or tomorrow or twenty years from now. When it is, what impact will you have had on this world? When you look at your kids, the neighbor, the clerk at wal-mart what impact will you have had? Just a question for you to ponder today. Its a hard truth. |
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