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My Church friends I am so hurt right now I jsut need to get out my spirit. I ask you to pray for me and My Husband in regards to this.
My Husband receieved an email from his sister last night that crushed his very spirit. She said she has lost all trust and respect for him as a man and a brother. She said he had disrespected her in numerous ways. Like not paying back a $2,000 loan (he honestly thought he has/had) She is involved in the Mona Vie. She kept trying to get him involved he had told her he didnt have the $$ or the time to do it. She said she would handle it. He still said NO!! Then we started getting cases delivered to our house!! We dont want it. She said it costs her so much $$$ and he just thought it was a joke. No He said NO!!! She did it anyway. She brought up past issues of their up bringing and said that he holds it against their parents for them not having much growing up. She even went as far as to say He does not love his Mother. She said many many hurtful and painful things in this email. My Husband was crushed completely Devistated last night after reading this then all that turned to anger. I just prayed and prayed! He did respond to her in an email and took her a check to pay her back the money for the Mona Vie and took her back the cases we had received. We told her at Thanksgiving we dont like it we dont want it! We told her to take it back she didnt.
Here is where my personal spirit is crushed and devistated! I read a email in response to my husbands this morning. And in it My sister in law says how a friend of mine told her why we left our old church and that she had known it all along and that she never said anything cause she just wanted to support her brother and the kids through it. That is why she never said a word but she had known she just got the confirmation about it the other day though. She says I am a cruel person and that I laughed when she called the other night to say she was hurt and upset by my Husbands actions. I was like what. I honestly do not believe I laughed I do remember gasping because I was shocked but Laughing I dont think so.
She went on to say some other things not so nice about me. I am totally totally hurt by this. Mainly because I stay out of their family problems. When their mom is sick I say nothing. When their father died I said nothing, I cleaned the house we were all staying at, I cooked meals I did everything for all of them so they could grieve and comfort each other. SHe told him I went behind his back to ask for the $2000 to help us out of a financial bind. I did but there is a long long story behind that and it is not a deceptive thing! It was a pride thing ( my husbands pride) if I would have known then what I know now trust me I would never ever have asked for it.
I guess what hurts me the most is this friend who told her about my affair has been my friend for over 8 years atleast!! She just joined the same church as my sister in law goes too while we were gone on Vacation. There is no reason why she should have told her about the affair, unless it was to damage my Charecter in the family's eyes! No we didnt tell family about it why because it was our business and I dont care for my children to know they are to young. My sister knows but that is because she is my best friend and she is MY SISTER!!! I told her. If Darin wanted his sister to know He should have had the right to tell her not someone else!!!! I know when my husband reads the email when he gets home from work he is going to be upset by it even more than yesterday.
My Brothers and sister I am just so upset by all this I am hurt I am angry I feel betrayed!! I dont know what to do. I want to talk to my sister in law but I am so angry and hurt I will say somethings that I may regret. I want to talk to this "friend" but I cant cause of the same reasons. Please pray and pray hard for me and with me. I have to much going on right now and this just is adding to the stress and pressure!! I truly dont know what to do. I dont even want to be around either of them right now! I am so so hurt |
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| January 15, 2008 |
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| I asked God to continue to guide you during this difficult period in your marriage, and the words that He spoke to my spirit are, "Those that wait upon the Lord shall run and not be weary", I hope you understand what He means by this because it was spoken on your behalf. |
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| January 15, 2008 |
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| It is best not to say anything while you are this angry. I pray that God will give you peace in your spirit about this. It hurts when people you think are your friends do something to hurt you. There is no way to deal with it other than taking it to God. My thoughts and prayers are with you. |
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| January 15, 2008 |
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I will keep you and your husband in my prayers, I agree, give all that pain and hurt over to God.
Matthew 11
28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke fits perfectly, and the burden I give you is light. |
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| January 15, 2008 |
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| Thank you all for taking the time to encouarge me and pray for me!! I love you all and appreciate you!! |
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| January 15, 2008 |
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Oh, my. I am moved in my spirit and tears flow for you. I am and will pray for you. It is so terrible when the Family of God hurt it's own, and when blood family does the same. I agree with Deb, don't say or do anything out of anger. I encourage you to pray for God to fill you with His peace, love, mercy and compassion. I KNOW the last thing you want to do is love and ask compassion on these two people, but it is what Jesus would have us to do. We (my husband & I) had a small test like this with his boss this week. We spent the weekend praying and were ministered to so profoundly at church this weekend.
Support your Man of God. Enourage him in the Word and just be there for him. He has all he needs in him, because he has the Holy Spirit in him.
Will pray for you. I look forward to hearing a great report.
~Robin 
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| January 15, 2008 |
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| I am praying also. |
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| January 16, 2008 |
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I am praying for you and for your husband. My heart aches for you. It is so easy to tell you to forgive and give it to God. I know from experience that it is not as easy to walk that out. I can suggest spending a lot of time in Psalms. That is one thing that really helped me heal of my wounds. The Word of God is like an ointment--neosporin--it helps heal our hurts. Just know that I am here as a support to you, just as all the others who have committed to pray for you. You are not alone. |
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| March 05, 2008 |
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It really hurts to be gossipped about and judged. A long time ago...there was a person that was saying horrid things about me. I would often sob to The Lord and say...these things are so untrue. I was so absolutely hurt and dismayed. The Lord answered me. He impressed my heart with this: "I will take care of him. You do not need to defend yourself." I took this to mean that He would work in this person's heart. I was to leave it to The Lord. I still pray for this person...that The Lord would soften his heart and heal his pain.
Jesus knows your hurt and sorrow. Give it all to him. Stop trying to defend yourself and just turn it over to Him. Hold your head up as a redeemed daughter of God. I pray that He fills your heart with peace.
Forgiven. |
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