| Birthdays and something God Smacked on my forehead tonight |
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Ok, so first off let me start out by saying that I am learning about gloating and how not to do it. Taking credit away from God of course so when my birthday comes around I try not to make it a big deal because, well, since I was 15 it has not been a big deal.
Here are a few reasons why I don't like (or didn't like for a while) my birthday: on my 16th birthday I invited friends and family to come and nobody showed up,
On my 17th birthday, I had moved out of my Dad's house and stopped talking to him because we both mutually agreed that it was time for me to be on my own and to top that day off I didn't wake up until 2pm in the afternoon and realized that nobody cared enough about me to even say hi, so I went back to bed.
My 18th birthday, I was pregnant, getting ready to be married and confused about my life and where I was taking it.
My 19th Birthday I went to Chuck E Cheeses and paid for everything, got happy birthday's from people but my Dad forgot about me.
My 20th birthday I had just had my daughter and enjoyed the night with my kids.
My 21st birthday, I went to Red Lobster and wasn't carded.
My 22nd Birthday I supposed to go to the snow for my present but instead my EX-husband decided to leave me and my two daughters behind because I would not take my newborn to the snow and he didn't want to take the time to drop her off with her Grandma.
My 23rd birthday I spent with my now husband who just gave me smiles and happiness and my Dad remembered my birthday.
My 24th I got my dog which of course got my husband out of ever buying me a present ever again since that was all that I ever wanted-and 25 roses.
My 25th birthday, today, I got to sleep in with my daughter who got to have a sleep over in my bed last night and stayed in bed longer than me this morning like a lazy head, and I got happy birthdays from lots of people.Today I have felt love from other people that I didn't know last year, and showed me that a simple "happy birthday" can cheer someone up. My birthday's aren't always the greatest but the love that God has shown me his children can give is far greater than anything that I could ever want because a need is more important, and today, I needed this! Thank you to all of you who wished me a happy birthday, you made my day!
Now tonight at church, I wasn't going to go because my husband is on nights and it was my excuse not to but my husband said before he left that I probably needed it. For those of you who went, I am sure you will know what I am talking about. All service I was sitting there trying to understand when I would get my sermon; here it is:
6:13 And bring us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil `one.' 6:14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. 6:15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
So of course Josh was used tonight by the lord to give me this sermon. I judged my Mother over three years ago now because she would not stand up for my nieces and nephews who were in danger and when I did, she turned on me and everything fell apart. Nothing ended up happening and I vowed not to talk to her or my sister because I no longer wanted to hear about the painful life my relatives were putting on their children. That was not my right to do and I need to change it. I have said I would for a while now, you know, going through the motions?
Well, this is a home run for me. So now I have to look her up and I'm not even sure if I will find her because she lives in another town so if any of you make it this far in my blog, please pray for me that I will find her so that I can make things right. It's like God is yelling from heaven to me to do this and I know that I cannot wait any longer so, I'm doing it.
Thank you all again so much, you don't know how much you have lifted my heart today!
God bless!
Lisa |
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