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| Hard of hearing (part X) |
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So in and attempt to make a long story short, Oh well it's to late now. My Ex-wife came in and told me she had given it a lot of thought but as far as she was concerned our marriage was over. I cried she cried, She was from San Diego so it was agreed that I would move out this was on Dec. 2 1999, just before the holidays I called every church in the Terre Haute area and said if you explain this *&%( Jesus thing to me I'm all ears.
I didn't get many return calls save one call from an old addict that was a counselor for one of the local churches. He has since become a friend. I sat in his office said the sinners prayer, then a couple weeks later I had a brief affair with a lady in AA, then another one. in the middle of the second affair I said I had to check out what I believed the second affair ended quickly.
I figured I should start looking where I was raised which was now called the ELCA. They were very loving accepting people But something was missing. I'd have to say some power was lacking power to change so I kept looking. Oh yeah a had a brief fling with a lady who was Gay wait a minute heterosexual, no maybe gay, well let's just say it didn't work out. I was crushed for a couple weeks then I started going out with another lady and my relationship with God was once again on the back burner. Then I just decided I wasn't going to go out with any one for a year while I figured out what was going on so after about a year single I had a massive stroke.
I spent 14 days In ICU but I didn't quit smoking. But my year without relationships turned out to be 2 and 1/2 years. During this time I found the Church I now attend, But I still need to make more of an effort to be more accountable with my brothers in Christ. |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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| You know something Dave.I had three failed relationships then I finally got tired of all the games that went along with the whole human relationship thing.I have been single for eight years now and have become so much closer to the father than ever.I like you was an addict but now I realize I was just searching for the ultimate rush.I finally found it in Jesus. I know that that special lady is going to come into your life.Just put the LORD in the drivers seat and sit back.One is coming your way in HIS time.lol we are all so impatient aren't we? Love ya brother. |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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| When I read your testimony, I can only magnify the grace of God. GRACE. And there is nothing impossible for God. He can save the worst of sinners! Grace is so very powerful! |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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| What a great transformation. You are so blessed! |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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as I was reading, I was thinking, it isnt just coming to terms we have an addiction problem, We have to find out WHY we keep doing the same thing over and over...I too keep looking out side myself to fill that VIOD.
I know it was only through the Grace of God I was saved, but HE wants more of me. He wants total abstinence from akk my old ways.
I will be celebrating 9 years of total abstinence from alcohol & drugs this month, but I didn't give up other addictions till 4 years ago, like men & sex.
Since turning more & more to Him and getting closer to him, my relationships are so much better!! MY husband and I have a renewed relationship, which is sooo awesome!!!
SO I hear u loud and clear !!!
THANK YOU!!! for sharing another part of you with us.
Have a Blessed day my friend
Donna |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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Dave
We have to be more ACCOUNTABLE TO GOD AND OURSELVES before we become more accountable to others.... TOTAL HONESTY with self(very hard part). We seem to think I don't have to think about this or do anything about that when it comes to self(not true). The something which is holding you back is always in the back of our minds and never goes away until we HONESTLY face it. We play head games and say we don't know what it is??? Yes we do.. We have to do some downright, hard, honest, soul searching to reveal it and we do it with GODS help. OPEN up totally and completely to him. Let him know that you don't know where to start, how to start and he will open the doors for you. If you can't be honest with him (and he knows anyway) who can you be honest with???? YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE THE RELIEF, JOY AND JUST PLAIN GOODNESS THAT YOU CAN RECEIVE when you truly give it all to GOD. Believe me, I know...
Much Love |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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Summed up very well, Dave. I found it interesting that you did not get many calls back except from an old addict. Thank God for him!
I'm glad things are going better in your life and that you are getting your priorities in order. Those things we sometimes look to for satisfaction are only for instant gratification, as you say, but the Saviour is forever! Good blog. |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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| Dave, you have come so far, as I have, from what we used to be. God is not finished with either of us, and we have to be patient as we wait for Him to show us what is next. I have faith that you are on the right track to developing a better relationship with Him, and with your Christian brothers and sisters. |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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Hello Dave,
Your testimony is so straightforward and honest! You may be giving others courage to try again...when they think there is no way back! My void that I tried to fill for so many years was the absence of love and acceptance from my earthly father! I was never good enough in any way. He left us so many times without the basic necessities of life and pursued other women, drugs, alcohol, etc. As I became an adult, I still tried to grow a relationship with him...to no avail. I witnessed to him. I wanted him to see his grandchildren grow up. He could have cared less. He died in 1998. I did talk to him on the phone a few times when he was ill. I asked him again if he was right with the Lord. He said that he had asked God to forgive him, but he really never asked me to forgive him. He told me one time that if he thought about all the things that he did to us that he would just have to shoot himself! I again told him that there was forgiveness for him if he asked. He usually just put me on the phone with the current woman!
The reason for this testimony that I am sharing here is that there are all kinds of reasons for the things that we do. Jesus knows all about it. He wants to put an end to all of our wanderings! I thank God for you and your honesty here, Dave! Keep on keeping on!
Cathy(Forgiven) |
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| January 17, 2008 |
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Thanks, Dave for your testimony. I don't know why--but I just thought of that scripture how "God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of LOVE, POWER, and a SOUND MIND."
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| January 18, 2008 |
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I, too, found it a very sad reflection on the church that you didn't get several calls back.
Thanks for the post. This is awesome and will speak to many here Dave. |
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| January 20, 2008 |
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| My language on those calls was none to Rosie. I reckon I shouldn't be suprised. |
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