The Lord is awesome!  I wanted to share something that the Lord reminded me of and continues to do again and again.

The other day, I was feeling alittle low and lonely, feeling like my voice and my very presence was too small to matter.  I don't know about you, but when I feel like that, I feel like my service is small and "invisible".  But . . . while I was feeling this way, God brought me back to a moment in my life.  A moment where He blew Himself up beyond belief.

Back in October 2006, to usher in my 38th birthday, I decided to participate in a 60 mile walk to raise money for breast cancer.  Once I got right up on the event, I started to freak out. 

"What in the world have I just done!"  I said to myself in a panic.

But I had already committed the thing to the Lord and I decided to trust that He would bring me through it and make whatever end of it He wished.

To make a long story short, God manifested himself in so many ways in that awesome moment of time it was not even funny.  From fundraising, to walking strategies, to injuries, to the people I met along the way,  nothing went as I imagined it would.  The people I thought would help me did not, and the ones I thought were a "long shot" came through like gang busters.  Along the way, I learned that God set it up like that so that I would not give credit to ANYONE but Him.  To God be ALL the glory because the only way I reached-- no, EXCEEDED --  my financial goal was through some really cock-eyed means that ONLY GOD could have activated! 

As far as the actual walking of the 60 miles . . . ah . . . that is where the fun begins!  To answer your question, YES, I walked the whole 60 miles!  By the Grace of God I might add.  During the walk, the Lord put me through "spiritual boot camp".  As my body started to break down from the physical stress, I had to formulate some "mantras" to keep myself focused.  Every time I felt the pain coming, I would begin to chant "By His Stripes, I Am Healed . . . By His Stripes, I Am Healed . . ."  And you know what?  That WORKED!  I cannot explain what happened but, when I chanted scriptures that were appropriate for whatever need I had, the problem righted itself.  I learned that His Word could really be used a weapon and a shield.

I also discovered something else while walking . . . I was better off alone with the Lord than with tens of folks around me! About a day and a half into the walk, I started to realize that having a whole bunch of people "in my space" was irritating me and slowing me down.  That was the most potent lesson I learned during my great adventure.  While God placed some key people around me to advise and counsel me along the way, I was often alone for long stretches of time.  BUT, it was when I was alone -- walking and talking (and sometimes PLEADING) with the Lord-- that I moved into almost a trance-like state and felt extremely focused and powerful.  It was rough going but I was literally buoyed by the presence of the Almighty.  He was right there by my side the whole time.  I have since learned that my life is like that walk . . . I sometimes feel alone, but when I focus on Him, I find that I really am NOT alone . . . God is there.

All this to say, when I had this bout of feeling alone and powerless, God reminded me of what HE did that rainy weekend in 2006.  He intends for me to never forget it.  As He spoke to me of these things, for some reason, Jill Scott's song "One is the Magic #" came into my head. 

And I heard God say,

"Yeah, One is the magic number alright. . . but it ain't you, it's ME!  I AM!"

So the next time you are feeling "too small for God's call', remember the Great I AM . . .
 You matter to Him.  We all do.  He has a plan specifically designed for you to execute.  Yeah it is BIG and it is SCARY but, if it is God's plan, it will come to pass.  

Remember that you plus GOD equals an automatic MAJORITY!   Rock on . . . with purpose!