Have you ever been to a point in your spiritual life, where you just don’t care anymore? Where you are indifferent to anything that is happening around you? When selfish desires take center stage, and slowly pull us away from God?

How do we get ourselves into these predicaments? We still read the bible, we still go to church, we still try to maintain a public persona of being a good Christian. We still pray, life goes along as it should be, yet we are in a rut and don’t even know it until we make a decision that impacts our lives and the lives of others in an adverse way.

I have seen people fall away from God, and from their family, while at the same time trying to maintain a facade that everything is fine. I’ve been there myself. You desperately want people to think good of you, but you are anything but. You are actually living two lives, one public, one private, and as long as the two don’t intersect, then fine, but when they do, things come crashing down around you. And God is there the whole time, because He can see your public and private lives, and where He is concerned, the two lives intersect always.

Maybe there is a heart change, and you fall out of love with your spouse, or you are broke and need money so you sell your soul to the devil and go into debt to pay the bills. Or maybe life has you so depressed, drowning in despair, and you turn to drugs or alcohol. Maybe you think just this one time I can do this and no one will know the difference. I won’t get caught, I’ll be ok. But one time leads to ten and ten to twenty and so on. Before you know it you are so far away from God you can’t even remember His name.

You have hurt family, friends, God…and you just don’t care. That mask of indifference is no longer only a mask, it is a way of life. Your eternal destiny is in question because you can’t make yourself do the right things. You just don’t know what the right things are anymore.

Have you ever had someone betray you? Someone you thought you could trust, who speaks the word of God like he or she has a direct line to Him? How can they possibly be responsible for hurting you?  
 

And on the flip side, have you ever been the betrayer? Causing such hurt and pain to another human that you might as well have stuck a knife into their hearts? I’ve been in both of these places, and neither one is pretty.

But you know what? God is STILL there. For the one who has been betrayed and for the one who has been the betrayer. If you have fallen away from God, He is always waiting to welcome you back. But He will make sure that all the masks are stripped away before you are welcomed back completely. No more indifference, no more lies, no more hurts. You will be exposed and raw when God is done with you, and only then can the healing begin. I’ve been there too. And I thank God that He took me apart, piece by agonizing piece, to build me back up into a whole being, ready and willing to serve Him. May I never wear the mask of indifference again, Lord.