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At this very present moment, I feel that I absolutely need to type because if I don't, I hear the devil whispering in my ear. So if I write, i can't cut at the same time (or at least that's what I'm thinking anyway)I was watching the Skillet videos on youtube and I went to watch the Last Night video by xcromas and suddenly I felt so very ill and really sad. And the next thing you know, I found myself wondering why it was a sin to cut myself and if it was a sin at all and things like that. I only assume that it is the devil trying to tempt me. Old habits die hard ya know. I really am trying my hardest to just walk away... I truly feel quite ill. My head is pounding and all that. I know God will protect me. Maybe I just need to go take a shower....poop. There's razor's in the bathroom... What to do? Let's pray.
Oh heavenly Father, who reigns eternally,
God, I'm really struggling right now. I feel the devil pulling at my heart and mind. I really don't want to return to where I was. I know you can pull me through this if it is your will. I just ask that you fill my weaknesses and take me out of this dark pit that I'm falling into. Lord, I beseech you as I type, come and put the Holy Spirit on my other ear so that I might be able to hear you in this time of great troubles. Oh Father, please keep me closer as I am tempted by the fallen one.
And keep watch over all who read my blog. And over Cheyenne and Kari and Kriss and Todd. Lord, watch over us all.
In your most holy, righteous name, Lord Jesus, I pray,
Amen.
There. Wasn't that nice. I feel a little better. But it's gonna be a real long night I'm afraid. 118:6 The LORD [is] on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me? 118:6 With the LORD on my side I do not fear. What can man do to me? 118:6 The Lord is on my side; I will have no fear: what is man able to do to me? 118:6 Jehovah is on my side; I will not fear: What can man do unto me?
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