Discontentment. It is a disease that affects all humanity at some point or another.

Common symptoms include:

Restlessness

Uncertainty

Unaccountable fatigue

Ennui

Scattered thoughts
Covetousness

Irritability

Weak Spiritual life

Emotional instability

Lack of conviction

     And in rare cases:

          Fear

          Rage

          Infidelity

We often think, with our sin natures, that we deserve better. That we should be entitled to more than we have. Life gave us the “raw end of the deal”. And this could be true, if you have no idea of my loving Creator God.

When in times, like now, that I feel no contentment with my lot in life. I feel as if I am wasting my time and I need to be doing something better. Skip this training junk. Who cares if I have no idea of the mission field, my faith is not as strong as it needs to be and I am facing more spiritual decisions that can be rationalize to support a ministry with?

Just the other evening, I was sitting at my desk in my dorm room, looking for some visuals for teaching a new lesson in my Teaching classes. My freshman roommates were happily talking on the phones to their friends and families. The atmosphere on their end was jovial and peaceful.

I was having, what I like to call an “Arlii party”. This is similar to a pity party in that I am being selfish, but different in that I was letting my temper get the better of me. The Lord chose to test me with a migraine that day, as well as a hard day in classes, and I was not passing the test.

I snapped at my roommates twice to keep the noise down and to stop complaining about school. They signed the contract to follow the rules, so what is the use in complaining right? I did not treat them well.

Well, I had an Arlii tantrum and stormed out of the semi-noisy room. I grabbed my science homework and my Bible, thinking that I would finish the one then read the other for class tomorrow. I no sooner opened my history book than feelings of despair and ennui flooded me. I could not even bring myself to do that simple homework. I placed my head down on the couch and just sat there, not thinking or feeling.

The Spirit then led me to open my Bible. I open to Psalms for a little encouragement. What I got was an eye opener. My God proceeded to show me that His Law was enough, is enough and will always be enough for me.

You probably figured out that I was reading Psalm 119. Every single verse has a reference about God’s Holy Law. His “statues, word, law, commandments” and many other references poured over my soul like a balm. Beautiful words.

I have been saved for 8 years now, but I have never felt such
refreshing in my spirit before.

Whenever you stop to groan in your spirit over what you do not have, remember that God’s Law is Eternal.

I challenge you to read Psalm 119 one verse at a time, just seeing the Beautiful Word of God for what He wants it to be.