Twenty one years ago today I was in the first hours of mourning the best man I've ever known.  It just seems like yesterday to me sometimes.  Even now, at times when things aren't going so good, I wonder why God allowed him to go then when I need him so much right now.  Other times I think about how much he suffered in those last 8 months and I wonder why God let him last so long.  Yet I know in my heart that God's timing is perfect and that one day I will understand.  

I'll never forget his last words to me.  He looked up at me like it was any other day and said "I love you baby doll".  That was just before they took him into surgery to try to remove the mass that was growing on his brain.  How could I have known that, that day was the last time on this earth I would hear my father tell me he loved me and the last chance I would have to tell him how much I loved him. If I had only known, I would have said everything I never had the chance or the nerve to say.  I would have told him what a wonderful loving father I thought he was.  I would have told him thank you for being such a safety zone in my life.  I would have made sure he knew that in my eyes there could never be a more solid and phenomenal example.  I thank God for blessing my life with my fathers presence.  There are so many young women with the wrong idea of what a good man is.  I thank God for giving me such a great foundation.    I thank God for heaven and for making a way and a path for me to follow so that I can know I will see him again one day and we'll pick right up where we left off. 

I know this blog was more for me than anyone else but I just want everyone to think about this one thing. . . .

We often speak very quickly when were angered and sometimes don't give a thought about it.  We should be just as quick to tell someone we love them or appreciate them.  The Bible tells us to lift each other up.  There's just not enough of that these days.  Never wait too late to say the things you want to and need to say to someone you love. 

And last but not least, to all of the cast in this years production of Watch The Lamb, thanks for being the voice of God through this play as he tells everyone who will hear how much he loves them.  I love you and appreciate you more than you could ever know.