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There has been much discussed in my Mychurch circle as of late about cutting and emotional pain. I wanted to open up a discussion in a blog for anyone who whats to talk, share a testimony, offer scripture, give a healing word.
Don't feel like you have to expose yourself. Feel free to send a private message if you'd like to share or even vent. I want you to know that I love you and will pray for you. There are others on here that love you and will support you as well. All private messages will remain private!
Most of all...God loves you and whats to see you whole.
I'll start this off with a few thoughts and see were it goes from there.
The Lord to me~
Every tear that you have cried, I cried too.
I will right all wrongs.
I love you.
I sing over you.
You are my daughter.
A blog about my pain...http://www.mychurch.org/blog/72983/Journal-Entry---My-Emotional-Healing
For those who don't know me.
I'll post some healing experiences as this rolls along. For now...I'll stop here. |
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Dana |
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February 25, 2008 at 10:41pm |
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| By the way...I would like to add something. I am clueless! The more I learn...the less I find out I really know. I do know that there is Healing in Christ and that is good enough for me. I really don't need to understand. I have faith and love. There is enough left over to pass around to those who need encouragement. |
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 7:26pm |
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BTW, I have received messages from concerned people who are very worried about me. Don't, I am not cutting nor am I depressed. I use to scratch crossed in my arm and had more than my share of depression. That was long ago. But having gone thought that and much more, I understand were the hurting are coming from. My heart is to reach out to as many as I can and share the love of God and his beautiful healing....which I have received.
What a wonderful place where so many care! Thanks guys, but no worries for me! |
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 7:27pm |
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| Jordan, hey baby girl! Love you too. Thanks for coming by. |
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 7:53pm |
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| Thanks to all who have sent messages and shared your stories with me. You are loved. When you can't do anything else...keep standing! I love you guys! |
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I have not cut... but have ministered to some who do... they each said, "I cut to feel alive. I feel so dead inside." If that helps...
I have been through major inner healing... and have ministered from a place of victory. Am praying....
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 7:58pm |
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True, true, true. Thanks for adding that.
We should start a healing club! LOL! It feels wonderful to be free! I went through 5 years of healing. Our God is Good! Would you like to add your healing story? |
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February 26, 2008 at 7:59pm |
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Dana,
This is what I'm talking about. I have only been here for a couple of months, but MyChurch has proven to be filled with really smart people who really care. Having two daughters compels me to stay aware of what their world is made up of. What they might be facing, dealing with or at least witnessing among their peers. They are young, but the culture seems to be trickling down further and younger every year. I just hope that if they are ever in a position where they can't talk to me or their mom that an understanding, caring and Spirit led page like yours is where they turn. Thank you for being a safe landing place for someones loved ones.
When I was growing up it took on less conspicuous forms. We drank, smoked experimented with drugs, promiscuity anything to stop feeling. The eighties were the age of broken families and well kept secrets. You often felt like being numb was the only way to survive the pain. We too sank into music and culture. The closest thing we had to emos were punks and new wave. The messages were dark and the drugs were designer. It seems as though healthier alternatives have at least become more socially acceptable, but the depths of suffering seem to be a little worse. I think a lot of young people don't believe that the generation ahead of them can relate or even understand their problems or feelings, but know that the battle of good and evil is eternal and changes very little over the centuries, much less a few decades. There may be someone older who does get it and is waiting for the chance to help. GOD has healed many of us and we just haven't gotten real good at passing it on.
You can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens you.....
Love,
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 7:59pm |
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| Lara, your blog is just what it should be. You are a valued member of the kingdom of God! You rock! |
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 8:02pm |
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| Bhek, thanks for sharing. Punks...oh the memories! If my dad, a pastor, would have let me...I'd have had purple hair back then. LOL! Check out my picture and see what color my hair is now! |
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 8:29pm |
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THEIR CRIES / DANA ELLIS:
In their eyes are tears
In their heart is glass
In their bones is pain
Etched in deep
Lonely in every cell
They scream to come out
To face the world
To love
To be loved
Their heart beats it
You don’t listen
Hear each beat scream
“Save Me!”
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Cheryl |
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February 26, 2008 at 8:37pm |
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| Dana, came by to see the blessing. From what I can see right now, 90 people have read this blog, maybe some of them reread it. We don't care if they don't want to leave a message. WE DO CARE that they message one of us privately~~ You, Lara Legar or I will comfortably chat with them``really``no pressure. We didn't want any, why when your about to bust anyway!! We TRUELY HAVE BEEN THERE AND LOVE YOU, come and see..... |
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 9:05pm |
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Great question prstn496.
Anyone who would like to...please feel free to share. I do want to be careful thought that we do not "trigger" anyone...so let's use our descriptions cautiously!
Yes, Christians do it. Just like Christians are drunkards, drug addicts - even to prescription meds., overeaters, shoplifters,... etc... All tools to replace an empty place.
Life is in the blood and sometimes when you feel dead inside, it reminds you that you are alive. That is one simple answer...there are so many reasons and each different to each person.
I'm so glad you want to inform yourself.
Here is what I was feeling...http://www.mychurch.org/blog/72983/Journal-Entry---My-Emotional-Healing
It really is hard to explain something like this in words that an inexperienced person can understand and have it make sense. Someone help me out! |
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Dana |
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February 26, 2008 at 9:07pm |
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| Cheryl and Lara are friends and they are a safe place to share. Thanks guys! |
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Cheryl |
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February 26, 2008 at 9:08pm |
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| Dana this reminds me of my blog about Gentle Wrath, the picture of the girl, inside she was made up of windows but could not see.....the pain in life was too deep...Jesus was the ONLY one to set this captive free. |
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February 27, 2008 at 12:37pm |
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There are many things...and sometimes ALL things. Where I grew up in the 70s, children were bad. Parents told us that, schools told us that, churches told us that. We were to do what our parents do. Parents don't do what is morally right (and children know this), Teachers don't do what is morally right (and children see this), churches don't love unconditionally (and children feel this). We get confused. Angry, alone, upset, confused, frustrated, no one to identify with, and of course it was a sin to talk about it. Teachers just didn't understand the whole divorce thing back then, and neither did church (in fact it was a sin and my mom was not allowed in church). No support from school or from church. A large family, yet I was alone. If I told, the family hated me for taking dad away. Yet he needed to go. Step families don't accept you because you're not "family". Parents who put themselves first. Who believes a child? There didn't seem to be a purpose for life, yet as a Christian it was a sin to take your own. My first time was by accident. I was so frustrated and angry, I threw a picture and broke the glass. As I was picking it up, I accidently cut myself. I didn't feel the pain, but I felt so much better. So there it started. But it ended with giving myself completely to God. Jesus is truly the answer. He takes all those unhandle-able emotions and leaves peace and joy. What's "etched in bone" (to use your term Dana) has been erased. A weight has been lifted and I can fly. I now let Him handle it. My fav song is by the Newsboys... I AM FREE! "Through You my heart screams I am free... I am free." And it's a feeling that is so wonderful that everything in the past pales in comparison. |
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February 27, 2008 at 12:44pm |
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| MT4God you are so cool! What a testimony, and a testimony of what God wants to do for those that hurt. Wow, that little word 'hurt' is so tiny, and big, small when your there and profound when your out. |
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February 27, 2008 at 12:54pm |
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| Thank you Cheryl. As part of a church, I really emphasize to reach out and be "the body of Christ". See past the appearences and see where the hurt is and to love...unconditionally. It's so hard to do that, but to know that you are loved even when you do wrong is so much worth it. |
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Dana |
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February 27, 2008 at 1:55pm |
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| Yes, This is what I am saying...if people don't feel love and acceptance anywhere else, they can have a safe place here. We may not have all the answers, but we have plenty of love to go around. We can support each other in the love of Christ....NO MATTER WHAT you've done or will do. |
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February 27, 2008 at 4:53pm |
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You guys are awesome.
Thanks Dana for your blog. I hope you've been able to handle all the private messages. As you said, it's vital that we support one another - we're all we have down here that we can touch and feel. God's goodness has to be tangible. Maybe that's why we feel such a connection with physical touch and pain when we think of spiritual thinks - Jesus agony while praying in the garden being only one example that comes to mind.
If any part of the "Body" is cut, we all bleed and feel the pain. I didn't learn that until after I had already passed through my time with pain.
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Cheryl |
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February 27, 2008 at 4:58pm |
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| Gene, what a blessing you are, thank you. We appreciate your support, and love. |
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Dana |
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February 27, 2008 at 5:23pm |
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| Thanks for adding your wonderful comment Daddy Gene! And for the stars. |
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Dana |
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February 28, 2008 at 1:41pm |
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| Thank goodness for a good husband. Keep up the fight. Know that Cheryl and I are your cheerleaders! |
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February 28, 2008 at 1:44pm |
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March 01, 2008 at 10:35pm |
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Chrissy, how true. I think the problem I speak of is when we don't let God have it because it has become a part of who WE THINK we are. Not everyone let's God take the baggage right away. What a blessing that you were able to do that right away. And what an encouragement to others to know that He can if they will.
Thank you so much for sharing with us. I know your testimony will help many and encourage many. What a blessing it is that we can speak out what God has done for us.
I agree with God uses our pain. Amen! That is exactly what he does when we are set free. Note I said, "Set free." We are no good to anyone when we are bleeding ourselves. This is why it is important to let God take our stuff. I wish someone would have told me this a long time ago!
Chrissy, I know you are a blessing to so many people.
The thing we want is to be FREE...all we have to do is give it to God! He WILL set you free. |
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only he devil want people to hurt themselves. the bodys a temple. that's what i'm taught. who ever hurt someone or themselves in love? and isn't that the heart of christiananity? |
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