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I miss my mother .
My mom has Alzheimer's and she often needs me to take care of her. These are the "good" days; the days when I can do something to meet her needs. The days when there is no reason, no calming her or understanding her urgent unrest.. The days when she doesn't know me.. the days when I don't recognize her by her words and actions...these are hard times for me. I cry out to God, and fervently pray that she knows Him. I think she does, or do I just want to believe that she does...I know that He knows her, and I know that It is God's will that ALL be saved... So, I claim this for her in Jesus name. Why wasn't I sure of her salvation before she got sick??? It is hard to question and pin down your parent...but now I know ...it is harder not to...This is when i need to seek God and not the answer. God, I believe; help my unbelief!
I ask all that will, to join me in prayer for my mother... that God will comfort her and be with her and that she would rest in Him. She needs some rest.
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i'll gladly pray for both her and you, i love you both! i've never met her, but God knows and loves her, so i do too :) i'll pray for comfort and rest for both of you, God is kind and loving, and His will is perfect, and made in our best interest, He also tells us to not worry. its a hard thing to do, share our faith with loved ones especially, because i think we are afraid of rejection... or at least i am, but lately, God has strengthened me with circumstances to outwardly speak to several of my friends, and a cousin i hold very dear. i'm not so sure that any of them have really turned from sin, but perhaps a few do seek Him... (not implying that i don't sin or anything....) May God strengthen you in this dire time of need, i can't imagine how hard that must be.... know that we all love you, and just have peace in God. >:D< (hug) -zach |
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March 03, 2008 at 10:48am |
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| I will certainly pray for your mother and for you. I can relate a little bit with you, because my grandmother is in the nursing home now with the same disease. I dont know what stage of the disease your mom is in, but my nana is in the 6-7th, and i blogged about a trip i took to see her back in December and i know that it is hard to see someone we love slipping away. I believe in my heart, and this is just my own opinion, that even when it seems as tho our loved ones arent there, whether its a coma or Alzheimers, that God can do things in the unseen world that we just cant comprehend. So i would say keep praying and interceding for her salvation, and i would ask God for some reassurance that she knows Him. He knows you have alot to deal with already and He is so understanding and i believe that he will give you peace where that is concerned. And you are so right, the Bible says, that He is not willing that any should perish without Him, and as much as you love her, remember He loves her even more! There isnt anything that is impossible for our God! In the moments when she seems alright, just talk to her about Jesus, and even if she cant say anything, God hears her heart! I am going to pray for her comfort as well. I will pray for you too. If you get a chance maybe you could read what i wrote about my nana on a blog. And just remember that God hears your crys. God bless you and please keep us posted |
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Thanks you guys!!! I really appreciate the love and prayer support.
Sometimes it is just so frustrating to look at that blank stare in place of my mom's loving eyes. But I do know that God loves us both and thanks for the reminder about how much more He loves her even than all her children do. |
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| I will join in prayer with you. I think it hard to expound more on the insight given by Zach and Amy. I'll add in agreement with them and your last statement, that God's ways and thoughts are high above our own and His capacity for love so exceeds ours that comprehension of situations like you are in, is beyond me. But faith in His attributes so high above us is an amazingly solid hope!! |
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March 03, 2008 at 6:45pm |
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I am praying for you and your mother. |
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March 03, 2008 at 7:13pm |
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| I am so sorry that you are going thru this with your mama. Guess we are at the stage of our lives where we reverse roles with our parents and become their care givers. GOD knows her heart and it is my prayer that HE will give you a peace that passeth all understanding regarding her salvation. HE formed her and made her and HE knows all her thoughts; even though there are times she does not appear to connect with you.Please let me know if there is anything else we can do for you. Love and prayers, Larry and Debbie |
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Thanks for all the uplifting comments....i really do feel a lightening of my burdened heart.
I was just feeling so heartbroken and discouraged after spending an evening with my mom and guess i needed to unload. Sometimes the load seems so great...when she is panic stricken because she doesn't know where my little brother is,who died 30 years ago in a tragic motorcycle accident at age 15( do we tell her and watch as she experiences the grief as anew???), or when she is worried about where my father is and if he has been drinking-he died in 1976 from an apparent suicide. After years of living with an abusive alcoholic she is wary and secretive lest anyone find out. In my mind it just seems so unfair that this smalltown girl who was married the night after she graduated from high school at age 17 to a man 10 years her senior who had survived the ravages of serving in the armed forces and losing his brother in a car accident he took responsibilty for. She had six children that she essentially raised on her own ...alll while trying to protect us and herself from an abusive and angry man. So many nights spent sleeping on the run in our car parked and hiding on darkened streets...does she not deserve some rest???
I know that our ways are not His ... but the hurt is there for me and I want relief for her...rest and peace. I wonder, has she ever known these... |
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March 04, 2008 at 5:23am |
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| I feel for you Susan. My grandmother has the same diease. Although I know she is saved. Its hard to see somebody go thru this. I just found out my uncle has Lou Garrets Disease and I pretty sure he is lost. They gave him 1 to 5 years to live. I pray that God gives me the opportunity to witness to him. And I pray your mother has a moment when you can and she gets that peace in her heart. |
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| Praying for you, Susan. Praying for us all that we will be bold and listen to the Spirit guide us to witness to our unsaved. |
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thanks Lindsey,
I really do appreciate the prayers for her and for myself!
She told me the other day that she was "most certainly"
going to heaven.. not really able to get into deep conversation at that
time, but am waiting for the next opportunity to broach the subject.
I know that God will provide the opportunity |
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Trukki |
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April 19, 2008 at 8:59pm |
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| You're in our prayers. |
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Susan,
I just read your blog . . . How is your Mother now? I know how you feel, my Dad has alzheimer's as well. He has never lived a life that gives me a little hope that he know's Christ. My brother and I have witnessed to him several times but as this disease takes him from us, I just pray that God can reach him. I have always prayed for God not to take him until he has turned his heart over to God so I leave it to Him now.
I just try to let Daddy know how much I love him and enjoy him while I can.
I am always here if you need to pray with someone. I will be praying for you and your Mother as well.
Love in Christ,
Sheila |
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