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Are You One of the Twelve or One of the Seventy?
||March 16, 2007|688 reads
 

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Heather Davis
March 31, 2007

This reminds me of a very interesting situation I delt with when I was helping out at a bible camp last summer.

I had trouble feeling like I was really "serving" because I was on kitchen staff.  I wasn't one of the councilors or worship leaders or anything like that; I was as a deckhand to a ship.  Who was that??  Kids didn't know who I was, except that I wore an apron.  (I felt like a lunch lady!)  And I felt like I wasn't really doing anything for God, just cooking for a bunch of kids.

I'm sorry to say that this story doesn't have a revolutionary, rewarding "ah-ha moment," where everything paid off and was understood in one dramatic moment, because the very nature of serving with a level of anonymity is just that -- it's without drama.  That doesn't change what I've always known in my heart.  It's hard to come to terms with, but I think it's a true test of faith if we can commit to God WITHOUT receiving the satisfaction of being known by our peers.  We don't need our friends to tell us what great Christians we are or boost our pride any to give back to God what He has given us, but sometimes, I think, we like to "scalp a little off the top" -- take some of the glory that was only ever God's to begin with, and have it for ourselves as we give the rest back.  It's easy to be in the front lines, it's easy to stand in the pulpit and its easy to be a martyr -- but who wants to be the janitor, who wants to be the cook?  Yet God needs every single one of us, because the actors in the spotlight couldn't do it without the stage crew, the set painters, the costume designers.  You hear "we couldn't do it without ..." all the time, but this statement of afterthought hardly gains recognition, it's almost a joke.  So you've got to be in it for something other than the glory if you're willing to devote your time without the recognition for it.

I feel foolish saying this because my aspirations are in missions and journalism -- something that, by very nature, involves media and therefore attention.  I pursue it because I believe that is how God has gifted me.  I enjoy to communicate and I do it well.  My comfort zone is being outside of my comfort zone and I love to travel and I love to be involved in different cultures.  That just makes it all the harder, I think, to keep my focuses in order.  Like a couple living together before they're married -- it's not to say that they ARE sinning, but it certainly makes it a lot easier to.  Being in the spotlight undoubtedly feeds all sorts of selfish desires, like pride and a sense of power.  So I think it's important for every person who serves to step back and do an honest heart check -- what are they getting out of what they're doing, and would they be willing to go forward with it if they didn't get that reward?

Sorry I've gotten so wordy, but that's my way of thinking things out, and you've definitely made me think! -- this is a great blog!  Blessings.

Angie Farquhar
March 31, 2007
Thanks to you both...this was a Word I needed to hear
Mike n Laura
March 31, 2007
This seems like a long and eloquent way of saying, "are you really doing what you're doing for the Lord, or are you looking to feel better about yourself?" Mostly I believe that I do what I do for God, but the Deceiver is so darn subtle that thoughts can turn to myself w/o my even noticing, he's nonstop barraging me (us?) with thoughts like "man you're really setting a good example for these folks!" or "God should have more dedicated humble people like you!"
Toni Ridgely
April 01, 2007
Thanks for this message