I can not thank each of you enough for your messages of encouragement and love for they mean a lot to me and so does your friendship. I want you all to know that I had talked with someone whom I trust with how I was feeling and once I did, I felt a bit better and my friend told me that I could always lean on them when I felt like I wasn't strong enough to do it on my own. I had felt the tears come out of my eyes and I felt like as if they were someone that I could lean on for anything and felt very much loved. I have been scare of begin loved, because of what happened with my father. However I know that someone out there does love me and I can feel that I am loved here on mychurch.org. I know that I will be healed from my depression, that just takes time. I have been in a storm, know it is calmed down to a healing rain and soon it will be a clear sky. I look forward to the day that I am fully healed from my mental illness. I am looking forward to that day and that will be a true testimony of my faith. I had borrowed a book from the church library called 'Healing for Damaged Emotions' by David A. Seamends. I have just started to read it, but I can say that it will help me be healed from my damaged emotions and hopefully I will not feel suicidal anymore, because I hate feeling that way and hate dealing with my depression, but then again this is all a test of my faith and to not let the devil beat me. I want you all to know that no matter how far away you are from me, your in my heart always and I love each of you. Each time that I go to sleep, I say a prayer for each of you individually, then I seal it with a butterfly kiss and hug that I send to you. Thank you for begin there for me and for the amazing friendship.

Butterfly kisses and hugs,

Megan