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| Megan, I pray you will continue with your friendship here on mychurch. It is through the tough times that true friends will hold you tight. We have all been through many struggles and we all need each other. I will continue to pray for you and I hope to see you on here again soon. Sending my love and hugs from me to you. |
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Cheryl, That is sweet of you, but it is time for me to go. I will leave you comments on your page, but as for the blogs they got to go. |
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March 05, 2008 at 5:09pm |
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| Well, I have written you privately, and you know how I feel. I wish you didn't feel this way, but hope that you will continue to be a part of the MyChurch community by commenting on other blogs...and for asking for prayer or advice whenever you feel you need it. We care about you and what happens to you. I will continue to lift you in prayer. |
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| You know how I feel about this Deb and I am afraid that I need to close this down. It is better this way for everyone on mychurch.org, because everyone would be better off without me around. |
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March 05, 2008 at 5:38pm |
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| You see, when you say things like that, "everyone would be better off without me around", I know that is the depression talking. When I was suicidal, I thought that way ALL THE TIME. You need to get to a counselor of some sort...whether you ever write another blog or not. You are not thinking realistically right now because of the influence of the depression. This depression can KILL you. You CANNOT take it lightly! You need to get to a counselor, and get on some kind of medication to help you. It is not a sin to ask for help, to take medication to help you fight the depression. Please, promise me you will find some help! I wish I lived closer to you because I would do all I could to get you to the counselor that I had, but I do not...so I am praying and asking you to do this for me. |
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| I have been to a counsellor and I got no where. I have been on medication and it didn't help either. Besides who would want to read my blogs that is why they are closing down. |
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March 05, 2008 at 5:47pm |
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| I went to three counselors before I found the right one on the fourth try. They are not all good at their job. You have to find one that fits with your personality...and preferrably a Christian one...and not all the depression medications work for each person. I have a friend that tried several different kinds before she finally found something that worked...she suffered horrible panic attacks and depression. But she kept at her doctor to find something that worked. You can't just give up. This is your life you are talking about. You have to fight for it. You have to keep looking until you find someone who can help you...one counselor doesn't work, then find another one. Keep trying different medications until you find one that works for you. Don't just give up!!!!! |
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| I have been with like 9 different ones, I have given up and it is that plain and smiple. |
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March 05, 2008 at 6:11pm |
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| I'm so sorry that you feel that way Megan. I can do little to help you if you don't want to listen to what I have to say. I will continue to pray for you, and I am pleading with you to not kill yourself. This world would NOT be better without you. Life is a holy thing that God has given you. Pray to Him, the ultimate Healer. |
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Megan,
I know this feeling. I know this thinking. I understand it well. Even though you have been on meds, seen many counselors, it doesn't mean that there is no hope. There is no better counselor than Jesus. His Love for you is greater than your depression. He loves you and His Love for you is all the meds you will need if you will allow him to touch you.
Jesus knows your tears, he understands those fears, and He wants your attention. People can be a big disappointment, trust me I know, but Jesus, he will never disappoint you, and you wanna know what else? He so patient, so gentle, so loving, so understanding.
All of those secret hurts... he knows all about them. With just a touch from him, they can all disappear. I had so many that I thought they would never go away, and I also like you, believed the world would be better off without me, and that nobody would really care.
It was in my desperation, that I cried out to him, not really believing that He would answser, but he did. I wish I coudl put in words, but it was such a over whelming Love that poured over me, one that I knew I didn't deserve, yet he showered me with His Love.
I writing to you because I know what you feel, and I pray that you will give Jesus a try, let him in and you will see as I did that His Love, Jesus Love never fails.
I'm praying for you
Pastor Aminata |
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March 05, 2008 at 6:29pm |
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| Amen, Pastor Aminata...I too have been there, and cried to Jesus for help and He saved me in my darkest hour...being broken is the only way sometimes to find Jesus. |
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| Thank you so much Deb and Pastor Aminata, I see the Holy Spirit speaking through you! |
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