I am sick of life as usual. Today I choose to die. No one can stop me. I have made up my mind. This morning I choose to kill myself. No one is at fault but myself. I cannot go on by myself any longer. I give up. I should have done this a long time ago, but I continued to fight. But no longer, because today I die.

You may ask why I want to die. I will tell you. There is nothing good in Joshua. Joshua brings death, pain and suffering to himself and others around him. I will end my suffering and kill myself, though it will not be easy. I will not be stopped. So I bid farewell to the world in which I have lived and taken part of.

2:20 I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

6:6 Knowing this, that our old man is crucified with [him], that the body of sin might be destroyed, that henceforth we should not serve sin.

5:24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. 5:25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

3:30 He must increase, but I [must] decrease.

In the letter, the “Old Man” wrote, "Goodbye to the World in which I have lived and partaken of". As Christians we are called to do that every day...

6:17 Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean [thing]; and I will receive you,

If we put aside the flesh, or the “Old Man” and crucify ourselves each morning, we become brand new every day...

5:17 Therefore if any man [be] in Christ, [he is] a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

It is never easy to die each morning to our own desires and take up the standard of Christ and read, pray and worship Him as we should. It is much easier to grumble and complain about work, school or the problems in your life. If we die to ourselves we are promised help to overcome our problems...

4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

For Christ to work through us, 'us' must be dead. In Christ we have all that we need...

6:2 (For he saith, I have heard thee in a time accepted, and in the day of salvation have I succoured thee: behold, now [is] the accepted time; behold, now [is] the day of salvation.) 6:3 Giving no offence in any thing, that the ministry be not blamed: 6:4 But in all [things] approving ourselves as the ministers of God, in much patience, in afflictions, in necessities, in distresses, 6:5 In stripes, in imprisonments, in tumults, in labours, in watchings, in fastings; 6:6 By pureness, by knowledge, by longsuffering, by kindness, by the Holy Ghost, by love unfeigned, 6:7 By the word of truth, by the power of God, by the armour of righteousness on the right hand and on the left, 6:8 By honour and dishonour, by evil report and good report: as deceivers, and [yet] true; 6:9 As unknown, and [yet] well known; as dying, and, behold, we live; as chastened, and not killed; 6:10 As sorrowful, yet alway rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and [yet] possessing all things.

6:10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. 6:11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 6:12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places]. 6:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. 6:14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; 6:15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 6:16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. 6:17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

6:10 As sorrowful, yet alway rejoicing; as poor, yet making many rich; as having nothing, and [yet] possessing all things.

7:1 Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.

5:16 [This] I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. 5:18 But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law. 5:19 Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are [these]; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, 5:20 Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, 5:21 Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told [you] in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.

Okay, so we know the evidence of the flesh, but what about the evidence of the Spirit?
If we read on down we will see...

5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, 5:23 Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law.

Christ calls us to show the Fruit of the Spirit. The Fruit of the Spirit is the opposite of the works of the flesh and opposite of the modern world. We should daily examine ourselves and see whether the works of the flesh or the Fruit of the Spirit are more evident in our lives. If the flesh is more dominate, we have to die. The modern world lives for entertainment and whatever makes you happy, and this is a fleshly mind-set. If the Fruit of the Spirit is more evident, we please Christ and He becomes closer to being LORD of ALL in our life…

5:16 [This] I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would. 5:18 But if ye be led of the Spirit, ye are not under the law.

Christ once again calls us to walk in the spirit not in the flesh.

5:24 And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts. 5:25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

6:7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. 6:8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting.

Lyrics:

As I look back on what I thought was living
I'm amazed at the price I choose to pay
And to think I ignored what really mattered
Cause I thought the sacrifice would be too great
But when I finally reached the point of giving in
I found the cross was calling even then
And even though it took dying to survive
I've never felt so much alive.
CHORUS:

For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live
Not I but Christ that lives within me
His Cross will never ask for more than I can give
For its not my strength but His
There's no greater sacrifice
For I am crucified with Christ and yet I live