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I thought things were starting to go the way they should. That this would be our year. Now I just don't know. Jeff is off work and has been since February 12th because at first diverticulitis. He had an accident and they felt the jerking and seat belt made it flare up. So his company has him deliver his load and go to the ER in Alton, IL. He ends up in the hospital, with a big flare up and some kind of infection. Finally allow him to come home after 3 days in hospital there. I have to go to Louisville to pick him up at the bus station because until his Dr. releases him he can't drive his truck. So now he sees his Dr. gives him another round of the meds Alton put him on. No help. So Dr. puts him in hospital at home to do some exploring. Well this tiny Dr. sees him, pushes around on him, talks to him and says you have a hernia. He takes another CT scan and sure enough it finally shows up. Well, he gets operated on and she said it was so big his colon was coming through the hole and that was what the cramping was all about. So, this is finally solved, then while he is upstairs in surgery my oldest is downstairs in ER to get help with her emotional situation. She goes to Clark Memorial and on the day she gets out I get a reminder call to go to Indy for my supervised weight loss program and I have to cancel. Now mind you this is the 2 nd time I have had to do this. It doesnt look good for me and me never finishing anything look that I have given them in Indy. I thought I was finally going to get somewhere with my weight problem. Now we are fighting with the Insurance people trying to get Jeff's short term disability which we got one check for in amount of 110.00 from 2-18,2-29 that doesnt make it. Im not looking for sympathy Im looking for support, help, I dont know. Everything is going in the crapper. If I can say that word without upsetting someone. How do we get out of this hole. We climb the mountain and wind up sliding back down to go around and around and seems like we get stomped into the ground and left for dead.
I'm sorry I dont mean to talk like this but I was so happy to finally be able to get something started for me and now me has to wait again. Then people wonder why I need therapy. HELP give me a place to start my desert search to get to the mountain top. |
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I have been homeless and without cloths. I have gone without eating when I was this way.
i have suffered some greast tragedy in my life. But, I never begged. That, to me is not Christian.
I don't mean to sound uncaring. That is why I had to leave a message for you. I will pray like I may have nevr done before for you to get this well again. But I pray you understand. Have fath and you WILL be alright!! God bless!! |
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Sheila,
Hey Sweetie. I am not so sure about Golden2100's comment. It seemed a little uncaring. Please don't let that hurt you. I know that with the loss of your daughter a short time ago, doesn't make the smaller things in life as bearable.
I know you know the word, you know how to stand, but you know the sorrow of loss. Please feel my hug from this screen, and know that you are in my prayers today. Feel the comfort of your Father who cares for you through my words. He will make a way, where this seems to be no way.
Love you!
Shannon |
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Hey Shannon,
Thanks for your prayers. I really needed that hug and I felt it through the screen thank you. I have felt far from the Father and need to get myself out of this pit. I don't think golden2100 understood what I was asking. I didn't want pity or sympathy I wanted someone to understand that I am on a road to seclusion. Pastor told us that once we get taken away from the church that Satan will work on us and he surely has. That was all I wanted was to be reminded I"m not alone. Thank you again for reminding me I'm not.
Love You too,
Sheila |
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It was not intended to be unkind. Barvubuela said so and then told you the same thing. Please don't take that statemeant as being unkind. I think people should keep their thoughts to themselves. How could anyone say how it was meant. amd what business is it of theirs??
As for Satan working on us. He will if we do anything for the Father. You are not away from the church if you have a Bible!! |
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By the way. If it means anything. My prayres are certainly with you also!!
I guess there's a lot to that song Oh Lord, Please Don't let Me Be Understood!!
Please inform me if you ever think I said sometihng unkind. sometimes I write so fast. I may not see haow it looks. God baless!!! |
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April 03, 2008 at 3:42pm |
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Sheila,
I appreciate your voicing your frustration and asking for prayer. We love you and Jeff. I pray that the Holy spirit will cover you with His love and assurance that He will not leave or forsake you. Only we can separate ourselves from Him; He won't stop loving us. So .. Right now I am reminded of David at Ziglag when he and his men lost all that they had: families, posessions, etc. The men spoke of turning on David. But David encouraged himself in spirit, then pursued the enemy and regained all plus plunder. May God's Word encourage you; may speaking in tongues encourage you. May every encouraging thought be sealed to you. God can suddenly turn things around. love, Joanne |
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Golden2100,
If we ask for opinions or feelings from someone everyone is welcome to say what they want and we should expect negativity as well as positivity because everyone thinks differently. I take what I get and analyze it, run it through and keep it for use or throw it away. I see what you were saying and yes, at that time I guess I was in a pity party state. Your way of reading what I said was different than Barvubuela because she knows some of the things that have been going on with me and mine because we attend the same church and that is ok because I wanted different opinions. I appreciate your candidness and your were fine in your answers. Thank you.
Sheila |
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Joanne,
Thank you for your comment. It has been a real struggle lately. I always thought we were having it so rough and I guess this is a reminder of how bad it can get before it gets better.
I can't wait till he's feeling better so we can come back to church and I can get my inspiration back with family. I am glad we can at least all communicate this way when we can't always be together.
You and Gary have always been there for us and I appreciate that .
Love
Sheila |
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