Okay, so I'm walking back from my english class today, just like every day, only - the sky is very dark, and it looks like at any moment the clouds will open up and pour out water over everyone. Anyways! I'm walking, and there I see my friend Justin chilling on a bench. I say hi, and go ahead and sit down to talk with him for awhile. He starts telling me about how on Wednesday night, he'll be preaching at the FCA meeting. "Well that sounds awesome," I say. Then he pulls out his notes, and his book that he's teaching from, and proceeds to preach me the lesson. Lolol..at first, I don't say anything because at this point, I'm hoping he'll figure out what he's doing. But then, what he's saying starts clicking in my head, and I'm thinking "Dude, that's awesome! That makes perfect sense!!!" So just as I'm really getting in to what he's saying (its like, half-way through notes), he's like, "I'm preaching you the whole sermon! I'm so so sorry!" Ahahah. ^_^ But it really was really good.

The sermon was talking about being Christian meant living for what God is going to do, and not what you want God to do for you. In fact, I'm about to go look up some scriptures he brought to my attention, about the Ascension and also one of the Pslams. But, one of the things Justin told me about, was as sinners, we live and strive for what we want out of life, and not necessarily what God wants for us. He told me that his biggest problem that keeps him from getting closer to God, or to sharing what God wants him to, is his need for affection and attention. Right when he says this, I know this is true. See, Justin was born with cerebral palsy, and to most people, might seem too different or strange to come into contact with. But there's nothing wrong with Justin. Sometimes, he has trouble forming words, and sometimes, his arms may not do what he wants them to do, but Justin has a love for God that..well frankly...I just don't see in a lot of "normal" people. 

And as I think about it now, Justin says his main problem that gets in the way of him and God, is his need for love from other people. He needs it, he longs for, and why? Because he is deprived. Because people look at him, and move to the other side of the sidewalk so that they don't have to talk to him. I saw this, sitting there with him. People will come up with almost any excuse to avoid him. ....and all he wants is someone to talk to. Someone to hug. lolol...he likes hugs. ^_^

Anyways...-sigh-..I've lost sight at what I was going to say...Its about to rain, and I've still got some reading to do. Just felt like writing this out.

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