Okay. So I realize that I haven't been on in a long time. But a lot has happened.
1. I had a Jesus moment
2. I had some major drama happen to me
3. I have a better testimony because of this.
Okay. #3 happened because of #2 which led to #1.
So we'll start with #2.
2... I now have the word LOVE written on my left arm. It was carved by a needle and will be with me for the rest of my life. I now have the word HOPE carved into my right arm. It was carved by the same needle and will be lighter than LOVE but will also be with me the rest of my life. It was March 26 and I had been in a fowl mood all day the day before. Then three of my very best friends turned me into the guidance counselor for a note I had written. They said I was suicidal. I was extremely irritated and felt betrayed by them. But I forgave them and they forgave me for being immature in my reaction to what they did. Now I have a doctor's appointment (okay... a psychiatrist appointment) on like April 21...Wow... that's like in 16 days! And my dad told me he was gonna put me in a mental ward. But now my parents know and everybody else knows and I don't have to psych out about someone finding out anymore. And that brought peace to my soul. But my dad said it was all my fault and it wasn't his. He told me the only solution was to send me away. And now he's put me under house arrest for the rest of the school year or more. Crap.
1... I went to my brother's church and they prayed a prayer over me and I thank God for J.R. because even though he doesn't know me, he took the time to pray with me and what he said was more relevant than he knows. He said things about healing strained relationships, letting go of old scars, things like that. But i only told him that I felt like I was backslidden. So I think God totally had a Jesus moment that brought me to tears.
3... I remember that when I was little, I prayed to God that I didn't have that cool of a testimony. That people came to our church and said they had almost committed suicide and done drugs and things like that and I just had that I had been saved when I was three and that was it. Now I too can say I was saved from drugs and cutting (even though I admit, I'm still struggling with that), and suicide and things like tha. My testimony is shaping up to be something spectacular for God.4... I know this isn't listed up there but Lara, You know that dream I had about the play and Psalme 118? God told me what it meant. I found my next witnessing mission. YOu see, there was another girl in my dream. I didn't say anything about her because it didn't seem relevant at the time. But the girl has recently started talking to me and I feel led to witness to her. So I'm going to fulfill my oath to God and try. But I am not without fear. I have prayed to God for words. I don't want to ruin this. So everybody pray for me!!!!
Okay. Well, I got to go. But if you please, look up Renee Yohe's story on www.twloha.com that sight is so amazing and it seems like it was written just from my life. okay. well, God Bless.
Michelle