OH last night was so hard! 

The phones there are busted up and and trying to listen to a faint wisper was impossible before but now I could not even hear him.  The way we get to talk is Pat puts his house phone and cell together- with me on the cell.  We played relay for a bit to ask each other questions (no Bibles yet!) and again if he could just plead out with whatever they offer him so he can get out of there- Absolutely Not! You have done nothing wrong!  
And then Pat said he just wanted to hear me so he was going to put the phones down.  I talked about how many Bibles should be there so he can inquire about them. I told him that a friend had provided perm stuff so I could do Mom's hair because it was so overgrown that she would not even leave the house.  I told him that there are a ton of people praying for him and I - at which point I broke down.
Apologized -got myself together- continued rambling. 
Told him that I have no more stamps and cannot mail anything.
"You have one minute left" - ( I hate that recording! ) 
I love you so much my Husband!  I squeeze in as many "I love you"s as I can before we are disconnected. ----- cried my eyes out-
I do not tell him things that will make him worry.  However I did tell him the Father is going to provide for the bills like he did last month.  I did not tell him that people have come to me and said that the store is looking VERY thin and that it appears the owner of the building has run off with more inventory.

I did not tell him that I break down and cry at the drop of a hat lately. (either in praise and reverence or prayer)  I did not tell him about the postings on here but told him that I have a lot to show him when he gets home because we have a large family in Christ, and he has ton of reading to do because I have notebooks full of everything God has done and is doing for us while he is away on this mission.

The Father has been so faithful.  There are times where I feel I am sitting and crying in His lap and  He is saying "I know honey, I know"

There are times when the enemy wants to make me feel guilty for crying.  I read Job and Psalms again.  The Lord understands being grieved in your spirit.

One of these days I am going to put together all the pieces of his letters and the rest of it together to show how He walked us through it all.  Intricately weaving it all to His Glory!  Because He has shown me a piece of the end result.  It's from -here to there- that is the challenge.  Father give me the strength.

Letter...

3-28    It has been a counseling day.  During Bible study there were tears in many eyes.  More so in mine.  We have some guys in here that would say that if you were to tell them a year ago that they would be praying, studying the Bible or even crying today-- they would have put their fist between your eyes.  There is nothing more Godly to me than a bunch of grown, macho men praying with tears in their eyes.  God has truly blessed me through these men.  They are so loyal and they protect me like we are on a battle field. (in a big way, we are)
More and more guys roll in and it starts over with every new face.  In fact it's after 1am and they just put someone next door.  Just when I say "Lord I must be done" - in comes a new group.  It is so hard honey, but I will continue until they call me out.
3-29    The Angels were singing this afternoon as Jesus added another name to the Book of Life.  ( personal info left out - I can't wait for Scott to be telling these stories- I just do not know how much info to give or share)-lol not the new roll in at 1am.

I LOVE MY HUSBAND!!!