I KNOW if  I jump off something high, I will hurt myself.

I KNOW that the sun rises in the east and sets in the west

I KNOW that the sky is blue.

I SAY that I put my trust in God.  But do I KNOW it?  Do I KNOW it like I know those examples I gave?

Well, being a science dude, I KNOW that many things for me take evidence.  Well, in one of those examples, I don't want to get evidence that jumping off a 100 story building will hurt (maybe just for a split second!).  But I can still say I KNOW that is the case, so I can't say I have to experience something just to KNOW it is true.

After praying last night, and repeating to myself in prayer that GOD is in charge, not me, I heard Him speak to me and say "Then TRUST me."

It's so simple.

He's in charge, not me.  All is in His hands, revealing His plan.  What do I really think I can do by injecting myself into the process?  All it does is show that I am not TRUSTING fully in Him...and while I know He understands my nature, I realize I need to let go of the assumption that I'm the one driving.  My trying to control it all is simply running me ragged and tiring me out...and that's not what the LORD wants.  I can serve Him much better in much more productive ways.

In closing, my meditation and the verses I have been looking up are related to relinquishing this PERCEPTION that it's my plan at work here.