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9-13-09 I admit to having rough times. Everyone does. Whether people want to recognize it or not, this is who I am. I was abused, abandoned, and had a difficult life as a youngen, and even now my life is/was in turmoil. I met someone who taught me who God really is, and now I am a desciple of God. I saw the signs of his promise to me. I am still single, and am praying that God will send me my mate. It is the day to seperate the wheat from the tares. Jesus is coming back. Who's side are you on? The time for one more chance is almost over. I'm still learning, but I know when everything goes down, I will be standing on the front line. My friend brought me to the Howells church today, and I met pastor Steve. Although I will go to different churches, I do miss reverend Farley. He stood by us when Pat and Kurt Kierstead passed away.( Grandparents) I miss them too much to tell. He would always ask how I'm doing and I was too nervous to ever tell him the truth. Well, reverend Farley I'm not doing so good, in fact I'm doing worse than terrible.LOL The reverend always knows. Don't take him for granted! I have quit smoking, and I dumped my bad ex boyfriend and I am no longer feeding the flesh. It's funny I went to the howells church today and I had the hardest time praising God. Presbyterians don't get up and shout Hallelujah, or Amen. We sit quietly and sing quietly. I'm learning to worship, and praise Jesus, and it is a wonderful feeling. I've sat quietly in the corner for too long now. I'm still quiet and shy but that is my choice, not someone elses demand. I finally realized that I have to forgive those who have done me wrong. There are many, but I forgive them,... for me. Do what God tells you to do, and you will be alright. Don't give in, or give up. Yea, we all want to go home to heaven, but we can't yet, so make the best of it. God Bless you all, and Thank You. I know to alot of people this will seem weird. I'm telling my story, so other people can find the courage and stand up too.
P.S. I am 33 years old, even though I do not look it. From Your sister in christ Karen Williams
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