Genesis 50:19-21
19 Joseph said to them, “Do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God?

20 But as for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive.

21 Now therefore, do not be afraid; I will provide for you and your little ones.” And he comforted them and spoke kindly to them.


I was a little girl that wanted to grow up fast. Because of being sexually violated at 6 years old I knew way more then I should of. I always hung around with the older girls and always wanted the attention from the boys. I was a cute little girl. I think I got some compliments of being cute because I think I new it a little bit.  

Well when I was about 12 or 13 years old I was ready to be a grown women dreaming of being married and having babies (dreaming of where I am today). Wanting more then ever to fit in with other girls my age and older. I remember one day I come home from school and I had my bangs curled which was not allowed... I guess.  Well I remember that day like it was yesterday. I was critisized by someone that was so very influential to my self esteem. With a dramatic speel they called "Peacock Prudy". I knew what this person meant by this. This was not a complement. This comment stayed with me all my years. I was not allowed to hold my head up in life. I was to slouch down and be a worm. I have no right to feel good about myself because this person didn't feel good about themself.

Well the other day Dave and I went to the petting zoo with the kids. I had been looking forward to going for some time. It was a beautiful day and the petting zoo was such a wonderful place. One of the very last animals to look at was the peacocks. There were beautiful white peacock that literally looked like a bride and her train. Immediately I was taken back to that comment so many years ago. And the Lord reminded me of Gen. 50:20 But as for you you meant evil against me but God meant it for good. God waited til He was the greatest influence in my life to reveal this to me.  Now I am like "go ahead call me "peacock prudy". It is now become a  complement to me because I am His bride.