When God talks to you what do you do?? I mean really, what do you do? Do you automatically go do what he says do? Do you answer Him? How do you know it is really God talking to you and not just you wishing it was? I personally can remember one clear time when God spoke to me and I did immediately what He told me to do and the Blessings began to flow almost immediately. That was the night my marriage could have come to an end! But instead I listened to what God said and did what God told me and my marriage survived. My husband had just discovered I was having an affair with my (then) Pastor. He told me he wanted me gone out of the house. I was devestated I didnt know what to do. I could not leave my kids I could not leave my husband and I just knew God had left me and was not going to help me... Then I heard God speak to me "DO NOT LEAVE!!! IF YOU LEAVE IT IS OVER!" IF YOU REALLY WANT YOUR MARRIAGE LIKE YOU SAY YOU DO THEN YOU STAY AND I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU!!!! I WILL FIX WHAT YOU BROKE! YOU MUST BE DETERMINED AND SO WILL HE THAT DIVORCE IS NOT AN OPITION. TELL HIM YOU ARE NOT LEAVING AND I WILL TAKE CARE OF THE REST." So I immediately spoke out NO I will not leave!!! If I leave I know it will be over, I will not leave I do not want our marriage to end. Divorce is not an opition. Can I tell you at that point I felt God take over control of what needed to happen next and in the days, weeks, months and even years to come. He fought the battle for me to repair my marriage. I can tell you it was not the easiest thing to do. But once we both were determined that as long as God was in it Divorce was not an opition. Many tears were shed, many fights fought. But most of all I learned to keep my mouth shut and let God fix what I broke. He showed me each and everyday was a new piece of the shattered vessel I had broken. Each day was a chance to pick up one of those pieces and put it back together with him being our SUPER GLUE. There were times that a piece fell off cause it wasnt secure enough but slowly the vessel began to take shape, and slowly it was able to be used again and hold the living water with out and cracks! One thing God let me know and continues to let me know is that even though the vessel itself was broken the FOUNDATION of the vessel was still in tact. I knew where to turn in time of my trouble. I knew I had broken something that only God could fix. We are 3 years later my friends. I thank God each and everyday for speaking to me that night and for me hearing and obeying. The trust in our relationship I think is stronger than it ever was. I did whatever my husband and God asked me to do so that my Marriage would not be a divorce statistic, but a testimony for what God can do. It took me humbling myself down to letting my husband know why I turned to another man, what I was lacking in my marriage. It took me to calling my husband and letting him now where I was and what my plans were. It took me to being very honest with myself as to why I was seeking attention from another man. I was talked about, I was laughed at. Friends who were my friends no longer wanted anything to do with me. I left my church where I was part of the ministry and a member for 10 years. I listened to God. I visited churches until through my children God let me know we found a new church home. I made new friends and some old friends figured out it wasnt all my fault and became my friends again. I was able to face the wife of the man I was having the affair with and ask forgiveness. I was able to forgive myself. Because I listened when God spoke to me I am able to tell you today that my marriage has not only survived it is thriving. I love my husband more now than I did 20 years ago. When things get tough I just think if God was there to fight for us through that what wouldnt He fight for us for. There is so much more to this and I will blog more about it as God allows me to. But my words to those of you who maybe having problems in your relationships, trust God! Listen to what He is trying to say to you. Think back if you are married to the vows you spoke and remember "IN GOOD TIMES AND IN BAD" Just hold on and be determined. I was I refuse to allow anyone to say their marriage ended because she was unfaithful to her husband. I want people to say their marriage is an example of how to bring your marriage back from the brink of divorce. Be Blessed and be encouraged. If God brings you to it He will bring you through it!!! |