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19:33 But when they came to Jesus and found that he was already dead, they did not break his legs. 34 Instead, one of the soldiers pierced Jesus' side with a spear, bringing a sudden flow of blood and water. Okay here we go again, just when you think it can not get any worse. This week I was betrayed like never before. I was filled with a hatred and an anger that I could not control. Well, I freaked out. I thought that surely the hand of God had been lifted from my life for good. No way could I get through this betrayal this time.
I began to ask, if I being, what the Word calls me, "an evil man" - could not even imagine letting one of my children suffer - "How could God be letting me go through this?" I said, There is no way He loves me or that He cares. Then I had a divine encounter with a former pastor friend of mine. The most comforting words I had heard in the few days of torment that I was going through.
"I Don't Know". Wow I was messed up when he said that. While I was crying, I had to stop and laugh and tell him thank you for being so truthful. We think that there should always be a word from the man of God. But this time it was as plain as I Don't Know! He said all I can tell you is to hold on, be strong, and stay faithful.
Then God gave me a scripture, John 19:33-34. I heard this and immediately was set free. Satan wants to take out the marriages. He wants to stick us were is really hurts. The person you are the most comfortable with, the one that knows you better than any one on earth, THE ONE THAT CAN HURT YOU THE MOST, YOUR MOST DEAREST FRIEND- YOUR SPOUSE!
See they stuck Jesus in the side with the spear. This is were marriage was birthed, this is were Eve came from, this is where God made woman from. Our companion, our wife, our best friend, our LOVE!
This past week I think I felt the spear of the enemy pierce my side. He hit hard, BUT - I will not give up, I will not stop believing, I will not quit! My marriage will be RESURECTED, (thanks Dr.)!!!!
Please believe with me that my marriage will be RESURRECTED, as well as others that have been threatened with this spear. I've heard it this way, I have been hit like a punching bag that has been weighted on the bottom. So I may go down, but i will pop right back up!!!!
Pray for resurrection of dead marriages.
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I'm believing with you for resurrection of your marriage! I'm believing Yahveh with you for his work to be completed in your spouses life and that He will surround both of you--on all sides--that you both be hemmed in until the work that He is doing in your family is completed.
The word says that 'No weapon formed against you can prosper...' . That's alot of food for thought when you are experiencing the pain of 'a spear in your side.'
The spears that we encounter from those closest (the Judas principle--the person closest to you can deliver the kiss of death) are sometimes rooted in our past failures. Remember that you can disarm that weapon through forgiveness. Forgive her for the pain she has inflicted, and forgive yourself for bringing her to the point of her actions against you. Express it a million times a day--to her and to yourself. Express it even if it isn't recieved. Unrecieved forgiveness does not dilute the power of expressed forgiveness. The root of forgiveness is unconditional love--and love never fails.
Standing with you, my brother!
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Josh, I can relate to marital problems. The first few years of my marriage were wilderness times for me. I would like to share a little testimony with you. I hope you don’t mind that is may be long. I will shorten it best I can.
Back around the year 2000, I separated from my husband to sort some things out. I stayed with my parents, and realized that I may have some real relationship issues, and that it couldn't be just him in the wrong. So, I set my face to seek the Lord more than ever. I rose early & sought him earnestly for a few days. Around the 3rd day of intense seeking, I had a dream. I dreamt I was walking with a Pastor friend of mine, down an old country road. We walked to the end of the road, where an old time church was. I remember the beautiful wooden pews & wooden walls. As we stepped in the church, I saw a man in a choir robe worshiping God. As I entered the room, the weight of the glory of the Lord was so heavy I fell to my knees. I gathered enough strength to crawl to a pew & lay down. Tears were pouring down my face. I could not stop weeping. The man in the robe began to walk around me and sing over me..to God. He then reached down and kissed me through all my tears & mess of a nose, not caring how disgusting my face was. Then, he got up and walked around some more...worshiping God. I thought to myself, "This is the man!" The man of my dreams!". I began to eagerly want the man to come back to me, because I felt such intense un-judgmental love from him. I called for him, but he replied, " I can not come to you, for HE is calling me." Then the man vanished. I was then thrown in to another scene, where I was walking through a neighborhood, searching for this man. I went in to house and every where, but could not find him. Then I heard a voice say, "You will never find a man like that on this earth." Then the dream ended. I woke up and realized that God was showing me a valuable lesson through this dream. I began to realize that I was putting unrealistic expectations on my husband, and that I needed to learn to love on another level. From that day forward, my marriage has grown stronger and stronger day by day. I find it easier to over look the faults of others, and over come my own. I know, that Gods love is far deeper & wider than we can fathom on earth. When we realize that people are not able to love on that scale, we can find mercy for them and grace.
Of course, I do not know what pains you have gone through, and forgiving is easier said then done, but I can tell you are strong in faith & when you feel weak, He is strong. If you can find the strength to lift you hands, HE will meet you there & lift you up. We are in TOTAL agreement for the joy of your marriage to be restored NOW in JESUS NAME!
Lots of hugs,
Shannon |
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| i be praying for you josh |
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http://www.mychurch.org/blog/180484/Our-Time--Steadfast-Purpose
Great Word Shannon! Be encouraged Josh...I to have been pierced by that spear, but I like you believed for restoration but I did not try to restore it. I focused me on God - YHVH! I let Him focus on her. We will celebrate 15 yrs of marriage on July 24th! Praise God He is faithful!
Matt 6:33 Brother! |
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May 05, 2008 at 2:54pm |
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Praying for you Josh and the above comments are awesome |
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Josh |
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May 06, 2008 at 10:15am |
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Thank you all for you prayers. Plumbline, I know I need to focus on me and God however, I feel responsible not to leave my wife behind because she is to angry to do it herself right now. I am seeking Him but I can not leave her behind (i want her with me, seeking HIM).
Shannon, Thank you so much. Just pray for my restore relationship with God so that our marriage can be resuurected. I know with prayer He has to do something.
He gives us the desires of our hearts, is what the word says, I desire my wife. I am not saying give me my wife and I will preach your word and serve you. I am saying give me my wife SO I can preach your word and serve you.
Please keep my family in your prayers- be specific: My wife's name is Reagan and my children are Jocelyn, Tomas and Juliana. Thank you again. *Also, help me pray that all relationships that are standing in the way of this victory be destroyed completely.
I need this quickly, I am not sure how much longer I can stand and admit I am weak. Until then, I STAND! |
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We cry Abba Father! Hear our cry! Abba Father! Sanctify! Redeem! Restore! Multiply! Tears that are sown, arise and divide! Break forth! Divide soul hurts from spirit man! Arise Reagan! Arise Josh! Be healed!
Josh, there is something about the tears that have been sown that keeps sticking out to me. They cry out to Father from the ground they fell upon. Conforting winds, comforting Angels, being released to you now. Rest in your Fathers arms...rest for a while. He shall sing over you! As He holds you in his arms. Your breaking heart, is his heart breaking too. I call forth the spirit man of Reagan to arise now! Cast aside every hinderance! I take authority of distractions & temptations. In Jesus name.
Shalom |
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Josh |
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May 06, 2008 at 11:49am |
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| Shannon thank you from the depths of my soul. You do understand how much I needed that right now. I will print this and meditate on it from this point until victory. And I know deep down VICTORY is coming. (I made her some lunch for today last night, her favorite & prayed over it, that as she takes it in so she takes in the spirit of God to break the walls down.) Thank you again, Shannon, when and if you hear more of this awesome word send it promptly. Even though I do not feel the hand of God upon me right at this moment, I know He is there so, I Bless You and your family that God will give you the desires of your heart and more! thnx, josh |
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