Your spirit is crushed by being told that those that don't believe that Jesus, as God in human form, DIED to pay the debt for our sins?  No one here is making that judgement - it's not our place to judge that.  It's simply a statement of fact. 

You're all over the place with your comments, which means 2 things - you're confused and you're searching.  Last post you said you were walking with the devil, and now you're saying that you believe in God as a being like "the force" from Star Wars or Native American beliefs.

God doesn't send anyone to Hell.  Our sins are what does it.  We are convicted, just like in a court of law, of offending God.

Does your god not act that way?  Does your god not judge?  Of course not - your god doesn't exist.   You're making a god in your image.  (see my blog on customizing your god).  Of course the idea of hell is uncomfortable - it should be!  But to play ostrich and assume that you wouldn't go there or that us warning you of the path your on is something 'soul crushing', well, if you were in a burning building I'd try to get you out - and that's what we're trying to do here.

Did you read my post?

No one is judging you.  I'm going to quote someone here:

The world often takes this verse out of context and uses it to accuse Christians of being "judgmental" when they speak of sin. In the context of the verse Jesus is telling His disciples not to judge one another, something the Bible condemns (Romans 14:10; James 4:11). In Luke 6:41,42 He speaks of seeing a speck in a brother’s eye. In John 7:24 He said, "Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment." If someone steals, lies, commits adultery or murder, etc., the Christian can make a (righteous) moral judgment and say that the actions were morally wrong, and that these sins will have eternal consequences. Chuck Colson said, "True tolerance is not a total lack of judgment. It’s knowing what should be tolerated—and refusing to tolerate that which shouldn’t."

Joey,

  Your the only one who truly seemed to get what I mean here. I will do as you ask, but will write it tommorow, because right know my head is spinning. 

Megan, I dont' believe all roads lead to  Rome, otherwise I would not be much of a Christian, would I?  I know that I tried many different things before returning to what I was taught as a kid.  I hated God.  I was angry with Him, blaming Him for my bisexual tendencies and all the bad stuff that had happened to me as a child.  I searched, but I know there is no real peace...and no real healing in any other.  There is no other name under heaven by which men can be saved then the name of Jesus.  Jesus is the way, the truth and the life and no one comes to the Father (God) except through Him. 

  I pray the Lord would open the eyes of your understanding, that you would see the awesome love He has for you, and that you truly would know what truth is.

   Anyways, spouting Scripture at you is likely not going to do much right now.  But I love you regardless of what you choose...but what is love?  Is love being afraid to warn someone if they are heading for a gruesome death, in fear they will be offended? No! Love is warning someone when they are in danger's way...just as Stu has been doing and I am trying to do.  THAT, my friend, is real love.

  I will keep praying for you. 

I only have a moment. I was lead to read the book of Jude this morning. The Lord told me it was for something that was going to happen today. When I stumbled on to what has been happening with you I realize the word was for you.(and we dont even know each other!) I am very familiar w/Jude because I went through a time of deception a few years ago, and it was my word. Now it is your word. Read it, study it, and ask the Lord to reveal it to you too! Love and hugs, Shannon
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"I feel in the core of my heart that God is much more then just a God,..."

This is a very intriguing statement, one that reflects a person who is attempting to come to grips with the difference between the God we've heard about and the God we've experienced.  Your post reminds me of an earlier time in my life when I just had the sensation that God and Jesus were both....out there.....far away.  In your experience, perhaps God has been far away, for whatever reason.  But for some reason, viewing God as the Great Spirit seems to give you a more complete view that more cleanly fits with your expectation of who God is.

This is all very good because you are reaching out to the God of all creation.  Scripture tells us that all of creation proclaims the Glory of God.  I often experience that when I'm out at a lake, when I'm on a moutain top or snorkling on a reef or viewing the depths of space from a telescope.

The Great Spirit is indeed in each one of us, and when we seek Him and desire only to follow Him, He acts through us.  You are on a path that will help you experience the Love of God because this path will help you see God on a personal basis: up close.  You have more opportunities to come to know Him as a friend now and to experience His Love, a Love that can completely transform you.

It was after I began to imagine Christ seated next to me in the car driving to work and talking with Him that I came to know Him as a friend.  I talked with Him as I would my best friend: I shared my joys, my fears, my doubts.  I praised Him when I saw the beauty of nature.

But I didn't actually experience Him until I stayed up one night to study all of the references on one of many topics I had compiled - communion.  I studied and studied until I finally gave up and cried out, "God, I believe what you're telling me.  I just don't get it."  The next time I received communion - I got it!  For the first time in my life, I finally met Christ face to face, personally.

A long story to encourage you to continue on your quest to find God, and to encourage you to continue reading scripture.  As you become friends with the Great Spirit and genuinely seek to know Him more, He will give you more understanding of scripture, which will help you know Him, love Him, and follow Him.

It's all about our own willingness to allow God to move in us and through us. 

Gene

Gene, Your comment describes exactually what I am going through and I hope that you will continue to support me as I try to find my own way with the Great Spirit to guide me. Love & light my friend.

You sure are awesome my friend and am thankful for your honesity my dear friend.

Mike, you have helped me out so much and I thank you for your help, but sometimes we have to find our own path. I am still a Christian, it is just in a spiritual sense and believe me it is hard to explain, plus you didn't do a thing wrong.