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With a Heavy Heart

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May 06, 2008 at 4:58pm

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It is with much disgust that I must write this update of my life.
So many things have happened in the short time that I have been gone.
>I have found out that I am bipolar. I am going to go get medical advice about possible medicine options on Friday.
>I apparently have offended Todd so very much that he has banned my lips from his ears. I am no longer wanted at his tables and it's like I am very Psalms 23 ish...Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies...
How did it get this way? What happened to make us at odds with each other?
He says that it is my fault. (which very well maybe)
I say that we are all to blame. And that there are several things that must change before we can return to where we were, if that is even possible. He still is my greatest brother but we are now more like mortal enemies than siblings in the house of Jesus. I'm not asking you to take sides, I pray you don't. i just pray that when I go to meet this head on tomorrow that we both may have some prayers with us so that we may once again be united as family. But should God not agree and his plans fall differently, then I pray I will see it a few steps too early.
>So I must go and get counsel, for I am much afraid.
Wish me luck!...And Todd too.
Love,
Michelle
Oh I'm a blonde now...=)

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6 Comments to "With a Heavy Heart"

Evangelist Keith Wilson

May 06, 2008 at 5:23pm

I will be praying for this situation, I am sure you and Todd will get things back together. I will also pray for your appointment with the Doctor. God bless you.

Doyle Crowe

May 06, 2008 at 6:11pm

I be praying for you little sister! May our Father in Heaven Bless you Always! You must forgive other but also yourself!

4:32 and be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.

Ephesians 4:32 RSV

Amy

May 06, 2008 at 6:14pm

Hey Michelle, i will keep you in prayer. I too was diagnosed with Bi-polar when i was 15(1986). I have been on medication too. There are many people in the church who feel there is no such thing as bi-polar and you shouldnt take medication. However i know first hand about it. Dont ever feel ashamed because of it. I hope your doctor is a christian. I will be praying for you and keeping in mind the situation with Todd.Let us know Friday how things go for you! God bless you!

King of cheese

May 06, 2008 at 6:22pm

Love The Lord with all your heart ,soul and mind !

Hang in kid,.. pray for your " enemies " pray for Todd ,.. its hard to stay mad when youre praying for someone and without going into huge detail ,.. when you pray for someone they come around...

I was mad at someone once and I told my friend " God wont overide her will" ,..and he said one of the wisest things I've ever heard he said,

" No Dan , but God can change the circumstances around her will"

Keep it in prayer!

Lara Leger

May 07, 2008 at 8:52am

Michelle, if my husband's ex-boss, and brother-in-Christ can punch him in the head, and they can be reconciled (we are all even suppose to go camping together this summer), then I know God can work through this. Trust me; he didn't tap him: my husband came home with a black eye and cut up side of the head.

The devil loves to cause divisions between us, but you just keep that heart of yours wide open to the Lord, and just obey what He tells you to do in the situation, even if it's super humbling.

Love you.

paul delucia

May 16, 2008 at 6:08am

Hi Shell, Just saw this blog. I really like the new pics...
About you and your brother.........conflict is natural. But let's look for the super natural !! (good place to say, "amen") :) Sounds like forgiveness and walking in the God kind of love is what will help here. About the bipolar........God heals.......but in the meantime.....Amy had some good advice ! God Bless You..............

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