8:34 And he called to him the multitude with his disciples, and said to them, "If any man would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. 8:35 For whoever would save his life will lose it; and whoever loses his life for my sake and the gospel's will save it. And what does Jesus mean by wanting to "save" my life?

My mom-in-law (MIL) has often said to us ladies that God takes pleasure in us doing our duties as wives. Well, aren't there bigger issues that God would rather have us work on? Like world hunger?

Warrior Chicks, this book that I kinda started to read and haven't finished talks about women taking a greater stand in society and in doing God's works - such as feeding the hungry.

I look at it like this: either I'm Mother Theresa or Martha Stewart. Being halfway in the middle somewhere, trying to do both and doing neither one to completion, sounds kinda half-a** to me!

So which one is it? Which one is "losing" our lives to God? And HOW do you know which one you're supposed to do?

I look at my parents-in-law (PIL) and envy their path. I mean, they KNEW their path. Pastor Terry often talks about knowing he was destined for ministry from the time he was a little boy. Well, all I knew as a little girl was that I wanted to be a mommy and I wanted to have a husband like my dad.

Well, at this point in my life, I don't think I'll ever have either!

So, do I give up and go Mother Theresa?

Or do I dig my heels in and walk the line?

Which one is "losing" my life? and which one is wanting to "save" it?

And sometimes I wonder what God sounds like. Because I sure as heck aint heard from him in a while!

I don't know! Will I ever?