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Well, this letter is so different I'm going to share more of it than I usually do.
I did not post about it but when the "he's a cop" rumor started and it got soooo bad for him in there
he called me wanting to take the deal they were offering to get out of there.
My thought- Make a deal with the devil to get out of hell... I think not!!!
6-6 It is just after lunch. It is getting harder and harder. This morning I was confronted about being a cop. I am not real sure how to handle all this. I will continue doing what I do, but XXXX has started telling the worst of the worst, this lie. I am in defensive mode. More so than any other time since I've been in here. It doesn't matter if they are using this to scare me. I would rather be out of here and alive than stand my ground to prove my innocence and end up dead. I have to stay in constant state of watching.
It is 12:30 am and it's a night where they won't turn the lights off. They will stay on all night again. It is bright fluorescent light. It is very hard to sleep. It's one of their punishments when someone ticks them off. They do this quite a bit.
Bible study was excellent today! We had 9 guys and 4 were new. One was the guy who got in a fight right after arrival. Great questions, great conversations. You remember the crew of men I had that were so consistent and became leaders? This is how they started, a lot of questions just like these guys. Looks as though we are going to pull out of this time of spiritual uncertainty where the guys are afraid to commit.
Prayer Call was another well attended group tonight. We sang long and loud. This group is beginning to see what worship is all about. I discussed Romans, not allowing sin to overcome but to be alive in Christ through Grace. We had a wonderful time of prayer and fellowship.
6-7 I so look forward to seeing all you have done to the house. Thank you for taking such good care of Mom.
I feel more stressed after I talked to you tonight. I trust you so very much. I am praying about what God wants out of all of this. I ask that He would intervene soon. I also pray that he would give me answers on what to do. It would be so much better for you to take the money from the sale to pay for the household so you guys don't have to worry about bills and food. That just bothers me so much that you are going through all this. I just want God's 100% answer. I want to make sure that my believing God wants me to go is not because I just don't want to be here.
6-8 I've been keeping an eye on all the flooding in the news. Near as I can tell the worst of it is not near you.
I was up all night thinking and praying. The guys went out for a bit, I just wanted to sleep. They did something wrong and had to come back inside. One guy started threatening the guards and was taken to the hole but brought back an hour later after threatening them again. This caused a chain reaction because he got away with it. It gave them power so they all started going cell to cell demanding store orders, some by force.
You must have been praying for me this afternoon. A couple amazing things have happened. First, I was at the steps talking to a couple of our prayer warriors when XXXX came walking down the steps to me with tears in his eyes. He said he was sorry and asked me to forgive him. I, with tears of course, told him that I already did and he asked if we could pray before anything else was said. We did and God had His way again.
Then one of the guys demanding store orders came to me and asked if he could order me something since I did not get any store again. I told him that I appreciated the thought but, no thanks. This one has acted a little concerning due to the rumor. There are serious threats because of it. I'll wait for God to take care of it. Thank you for praying.
Your overwhelming assurance and faith that God will deliver deliver me has been repeating in my mind. Praying about all this God had kept my focus on the men and their relationships with God and their families. God has answered so many of their prayers. There has been marriages mended, lives re-dedicated, physical healing, men completely turning their lives over to God and hardened hearts turned soft. There are guys that have rolled in these doors hard cold and bitter who are now reaching other men for Christ.
Being the Pastor to these men has been the most difficult job I have ever done. The most emotional, frustrating and at times fearful, than anything else I have ever been called to do! However, it has been the most rewarding ministry I have ever done. This is what God has shown me is my purpose here. When I have prayed about taking the deal and what He wants me to do, the men are the only visions He shows me. When I ask Him what to do about my case, He tells me to forgive those who put me here. The ones that I believed were strong enough to take over were all split up or rolled out.
God will use my experience for my next calling. I truly believe God will use me to speak about all this to reach others that may be holding out on their decisions to turn to Him. I believe God has already used you to reach others for Christ. Your encouragement is fantastic! You have such a gift for bringing people hope- myself included. God has used you HERE honey. I know that may sound unbelievable but it's true. Everyone here knows you by name and because of our love and happiness in our relationship that they see in me, and your love and support for me, it has created changes for the guys in here. The guys desire what we have and want it for themselves. So, when I tell them that God can give them the same relationship if they put God at the head, they send letters of their new understanding of love to their wives. It is so humbling.
I'm sorry for being so difficult on the phone.
Father God you are so amazing!! |
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| Still praying for you guys! |
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| Praise the Lord for revealing the truth to XXXX! Praying! |
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LOL Ga Cheryl!!!
Love to JF and Dell |
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| Praying that God gives him strength and comfort. And thanking God for you, Bub, alot of women would have bolted from this.....God is shining through brightly through you! |
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I don't understand how any wife could do that
Love you Who |
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Bubbles, what Cindy said.
When I read that last paragraph, it brings tears to my eyes and joy to my heart. That hope where there is hopelessness, light where there is darkness, love where there is apathy, those things are what my God is all about. |
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Bub : I have seen alot of wives leave when the going gets tough! I stayed through alot in my first marriage, until I felt physically threatened :) But, I've even seen wives/husbands leave when there is illness that is terminal or an accident that disables the spouse.
Love ya Bub! Keep standing firm by your man!!!!!!! |
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What the devil means for bad, God turns it to good especially for those called by God and who love HIM!!!! Remember the Words of Winston Churchill "Never Give Up......NEVER Give Up......NEVER GIVE UP!!!!!"
God is for you no one can be against you! Everywhere your feet tread He has already given you! Speak the Word in every situation, Speak the Word to every situation, Speak the WORD, it will never return void. It always accomplishes what He sends it out to do.
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That is my plan!
You betcha Dad! I cried my eyes out. I had no idea.
My heart so cries out for them |
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Mrs W |
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June 13, 2008 at 6:55am |
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Well I am liking this -- He sounds so different at the end of the letter from the begining of it ----
this is obvious to us -so we keep the conduit open and the LIFE coming to supplement his own supply ---
If a man's ways please the Lord even his enemies are at peace with him -- (even his enemies are unable to make war against him)
He is pleasing the Lord -- And HE will not allow us to go thru what we are unable to bear ---
This is a good picture for all to see - the principle - of the 2 shall become 1 and the spiritual laws at work for the man and wife who are in agreement with God! It is amazing Bubs what you can "send" him ----- go get 'em girls --you can do this too not just Bubbles --
Other men are in jails too - maybe not behind bars - but jails/bondage just the same --unbelief,drinking,anger, lust etc.
oooh feel a good round of tug of war coming on --- |
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Mrs W |
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June 13, 2008 at 6:55am |
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| oops forgot 1 thing -- love David's faith --- just reading it makes me want to woo hoo |
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wow..I had cried through this whole letter...It was so different from all the others!
Time to come home Scott..time to come home!
"The guys desire what we have and want it for themselves. So, when I tell them that God can give them the same relationship if they put God at the head, they send letters of their new understanding of love to their wives. It is so humbling." :) |
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June 13, 2008 at 8:05am |
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| Love ya Bubs...I too agree with Cindy, and Mrs. W...well all really...Keep pressing...Still praying |
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I can see it too restore!!
Thanks you two |
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| I am praying for you both. Love ya! |
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Thanks Pru, Love ya too!!
I think we are all in agreement then! |
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June 14, 2008 at 10:26am |
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| My heart hurts for you both for all you are going through. Hopefully God is planning something huge!!! |
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| I believe we will find out soon- yup it's BIG |
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