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Good Morning Church family,
Someone had sent me a e mail on here saying that they were lead to suggest that I blog on this comment that I left on his page and so I agreed to do it.Before writing a blog I always pray,
God I offer myself to thee,to build with me and do with me as thou wilt relieve me of the bondage of self that I may better do thy will.take away my difficulties that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of thy power, thy love, and Thy way of life. May I do thy will always.
Being one of God's soldier has been anything ,but easy exspecialy since my Dad took his own life Feb 3,2008. This has been the most devastating thing that I have ever had to face.
There has been several times that I felt so beat down and like I just couldn't handle this pain, and what did I do? turn to God and asked for His help. Once I came back from Oregon (where my dad had been living) I started going to a grief share group that is held at my church. This has brought alot of light to what I am going through and helping me idenify some of the things that I was feeling or that could come up during this time of grief. Father's day was a paticulary rough day for me and here it came to me that I was angery and feeling ripped off by what my Dad had done. I cried and cried through church on Sunday. I was unable to say it out loud cause I thought that it would be disrespectful to my dad, but, once I went to my grief share on Monday I came to learn that it is a normal part of grief and I was able to finaly say what I was feeling. Now on Tuesday grief share video was on suicide and here it talked about forgiving my dad for doing what he did and course all I could do was cry. At the end of the session my pastor lead me into a prayer of foregiveness. I have been truly amazed at how all that I have been going through the answers have been coming and there is only one place that this all could be coming from. My loving heavenly Father. I get just what I need even if I didn't know before hand that is what I needed. God has given me ALL... that I have needed and there is no one human that could ever do that. Even though I am still marching through this storm I have no doubt in my mind that the Lord will supply all that I need , I am one of His soldiers. As i shed tears they do leave me weak and I turn to the Lord for His strength to help me to continue to trudge forward in this journey.
This is just abit of my victory through Christ.
Through loosing my earthly Father, I turn to my hevenly Father more offten. So that in it's self is a possative out of a devastating situation.
Just know no matter what you are going through God Will help you through it and there seems to always be a posative in a negative situation.
I would like to end with thanking all of you here as you all have been a huge support to me through this from day 1. May God bless you and keep you. |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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Just know no matter what you are going through God Will help you through it and there seems to always be a posative in a negative situation
there it is -- awesome Tina ---
xoxoxoxoxoxxo |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| Tina, I have experienced suicide in the family but not as close as your encounter was. In my case, it was my favorite uncle. It sounds as if you have an excellent group with a leader/moderator that understands the grief cycle. Still, most only understand this cycle from textbooks. To experience it as you have, nothing can express exactly what you are going through. But you do know where to turn and that is to our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. In time, you will find that you can help others just as others are now helping you. Don't be afraid to reach out, speak up or write it down. Stay strong and you will see the Victory. God bless you. Dave |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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(((((Tina))))) I am so grateful you have a place to go for help, and what better place then your pastor and others who are greiving.
I have felt so HELPLESS through all this.......not knowing what or how to help you..being we are so close...so all I have been and still am doing is Praying .
We have been through so much together over the past 9 and half years and we both have come out on the other side of all the negitive. We have both come to know our Loving Father and both of us keep growing in our faith to Him.
You help me more then I think you realize....You give me Hope with what i am going through...
Keep flowwing the light of God and give time time.
I LOVE YA SIS.....Keep praying, keep sharing, keep writing and keep close to Him, as youve been!! He IS the ANSWER!!!
Peace & HUGS Many Blessings upon you   
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| Great blog Tina. |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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Tina, I wish I had words that could make this all better, I wish I could just sit and talk with you and hug you. We both know that God is holding us :) God is our comfort, and He's our strength to get through.
I deal with a different anger issue. We have no relationship with hubby's parents. I should have had a father in law who loves me, and would step in and be "daddy" to me now. My kids, basically, have no grandfather now....yet, one is still alive in this town. My grandkids have a grandfather still here, who doesn't even know how old they are........do we want them in our lives, no.......not like they are, but still I deal with anger.
Tina, I have adopted a "daddy" at church!!!! Yep, a man who loves me, loves hugs and I finally told him that I needed someone that would give me "daddy" hugs......he waits for me every Sunday....I fill a void for him and he does for me....and I thank the Lord for him :)
Love you sis......and God will turn our mourning into dance, amen????? |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| Amen too that Cindy |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| Yes, He gives us grace. The pain and grief you feel is very real. It is normal to feel anger, depression, hate, and guilt. Roll all that into one and you have almost too much to take. The good news is that Jesus is closer than a brother and that you can cast all your cares upon HIm because He cares for you. It takes time to work through those emotions, but know that God loves you and is with you allways. He will give you understanding and wisdom. You will find that through this He is as real and as close to you have ever experienced before. |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| Powerful! Thank you for being courageous! |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| You are beautiful and a daughter of the King! Bless you lady...Stand strong sister! |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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Tina,
...and I thought I was the only one this Victory - Don't Give Up poster impacted. It hit me right where God had me.
When I think of you and all you have had to go through this verse keeps coming to my mind:
2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.
His power does indeed rest on you and is made perfect in your weakness.
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| Thanks for sharing Tina we Love You. |
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| June 26, 2008 |
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| I know that it is frustrating- How blessed are we to serve a God who not only meets our needs but gives us a support system here. Thanks for sharing my friend :0) |
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