Morning all.  This one must come with a DISCLAIMER

Incoming missile.

This is the letter written after last Wednesday's phone call. 

I've been struggling with how much to include. 
"Include it all"  But Lord!  I can't.  "Include it all"

On the phone, he said he could not explain because they were standing over him and listening.
Well, here it is.


6-25     I was a bummer on the phone.  I'm sorry.  Things are coming to a head here.  The one guy who seems to be giving me the most troubles is a thug I think even the guards are afraid of. He tells the guards what he wants and he gets it. He wants two trays for a meal, he gets it. He makes a decision that he wants someone moved to a cell, he tells the guards and they do what he says. I have a pretty good idea that he is the source of the info brought in here. The problem is that I refuse to bow to his demands. I am having a seriously hard time holding words from shooting out of my mouth. Now I am this guys target. God will have to take care of this one. He has little followers that follow his every whim.  Which mostly includes stealing and beatdowns.

We received new roll ins this afternoon.  A lot of new faces to get to know.  Tomorrow I will introduce myself and invite them to study.

At PC tonight I feel that I scolded the guys more than ever.  There is a depression in the tier.  When we have to deal with these overpowering bullies, the guys battle depression.  It is worse now because the tension is worse that ever.  I am concerned about it, please pray.

(skippage on repeat info about talking to Shawn)

Shawn also said he was going to talk to Riley at the DA's office about how people were treated in court and the attitude in general.  I will brace myself and you should do the same after this conversation takes place.  Just like I know you are, pray about all of this.  With the DA and Judge teamed on this they could very well turn it all to keep me. 

6-27    I want to be right before God.  That is the most important.  I need Him to deliver me from this place.  I have seen so many miracles in here and God has been so thick.  Yet, when I pray for my release He doesn't hear me.  I know that it is all in His timing.  I need Him to comfort me and assure me that everything is going to be alright.  I am ready for the next step.  I have been attacked on every side.  Both in flesh and Spirit.  God has taken up arms against my enemies.  But my hearts cry is for Him to carry me out of this jail.  For eight months I have been in battle in an offensive position with my marching orders from the Lord.  Lord I'm done.  I am ready to leave this battle field.

What I have seen in here is that nobody wins from the inside.  If you aggravate the system they drag their feet until the one inside gives up and can't take it any longer.  They have proved that there is no limit to how bad they could make it for me here.  I refuse to back down from my principles.  I love the Lord my God with everything that is in me.
(here he writes out Matthew 25:31-45  The Father's answer to what all he is saying- Thank you Lord)

Wow, I'm sorry.  I hope you don't mind the rambling of my heart.  After I wrote all that we started a long conversation with our new cell mate.  He has mended relations with the mother of his children and asked her to marry him.   He truly wants to do right by God.  He is so worried that he will go out of here and use again.  It will be no easy task for him.

Then I read out-loud from Psalms.  I read 10 chapters.  I am impressed with how everyone likes to be read to.  They feel at peace as they fall asleep.  If I stop, whoever has not fallen asleep yet asks me to continue.  It's 1am now and it's my turn. 
(I miss my Man's voice)