This world that we live in today is a very terrible, and nagitive world.  Their are a lot of murders, sickinesses, cancers, teen pregnancies, kid nappings, sex effenders, drug users, drug dealers; hell, the list could go on and on.  Sometimes I wonder what people are thinking.   I slowly realized late last year that everything we do, not only effects ourselves, but the people around us.....especially the people we love. 

Like for example: my parents had me young, didn't want me, didn't know what to do, so they decided to give me up for adoption.  How is that fair to me?   Why do I have to growup thinking (and somtimes even beliving) that I am a mistake because my parents had me unplanned, and thought that I was a mistake?  Why do I have a growup living my life not knowing who my biological parents are?  It doesn't make any since.  And if it does, then Lord, please explain.  Cause' I sure in hells ain't gettin' it. 

Another example: I was watching the news the other day,  and a 7 year old girl was sexually molested up until she was 12....by her own father.  Parents got devorced, didn't wanna bring the lawers into it, so the mother left, baught a new house, gotta new job, and they both ask their daughter who she wanted to stay with.  She said she wanted to say with her mother.  Her father was mad and really beat up by it.  The only reason why they gotta a devorce is because the mother was doing drugs and cheated on her husband.  Anyway's, a few weeks after the devorce, they (the two parents) decided that their daughter would get see her father every other weekend.  And every other weekend for the last five years, he molested her.  That messed up that little girls life.  HE messed up his own little girls life.  Messed it up so bad she tried to commit suicide.....and shes only 12 years old.  That is not fair to that little girl.

I look back at the whole thing and it just makes me wonder and ask the Lord, "what is this world coming to?"  What those parents did to their little girl was wrong.  What my parents did to me, (and themselves) was wrong, too.  I mean, really, what's the point of living?  I mean, honestly, if I didn't know any better and didn't have the Lord, I'd probably try and take my own life, too.   Like I said before, "we live in a terrible and nagitive world."   And if people out there say we don't, prove it.  Actions speak louder then words.