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| There are times when but a single word can have the impact of thousands. Sunday was such a day, that my spirit had been hurting for several days from something in my heart and I simply could not put a handle on it. There are some things which can be said and even more that cannot, so rather than mince, confuse, jumble, or otherwise mess-up, I must simply work through it with God. I do not recall all the scriptures that were spoken on Sunday morning, nor even recall the majority of what was said, but I do recall saying that I did not have the joy to teach my sermon that day and that if you are going to give, you should do so with joy. I must say that it has never really happened where I did not have the joy to teach. I walked up front with every intention of doing just that and simply putting on a happy face, but it was not to be had. It was as though I was put on pause. I am truly sorry to all for any confusion I caused and the absence of an explanation didn't help, but as I am trying to sort through my own emotions, be assured that I will do my best not to let it happen again. I try very hard to consider all in every decision, but it is really an impossible and painful task. Yet in the wake of that there is often things that arise and someone feels overlooked. This does not justify or forsake what will be done, rather, it serves as a reminder to put God first and His greater good. My heart grieves yet I cannot fully grasp the reasoning, other than that which I cannot say for very reason of being misunderstood. But in it all I will work to see Gods hand at work, I will live on the premise of Phil 4:13 and believe the "I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me", and seek to find resolution in His arms of love. |
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