How strange is this?!?!?!
He told me it was coming. The letter he sent the day of court.
Now it feels strange to type it! I felt I had to ask him to post it.
(he laughed at that!!!!)
It is the last few days in there and while we were all fasting.
What powerful stuff. I'm going to skip a lot of the stuff we already know.
Here we go...
7-12 Saturday- I have been fasting for two days now. I am praying and believing God to take care of me. I need Him on days like today more than ever. The TV is on and showing a movie about a rappers life. Drug dealing, murder, prostitutes and robbery. I am not only a prisoner of this parish, I am a prisoner of having all this stuff forced on me. I get concerned about those who are searching for God and get pulled into the activities that go on here. I hear them telling me the desires of their hearts and then get pulled by a thug mentality. Mostly out of fear. I talk to these guys and they are good deep inside. They have dreams and care about others. They give to those that need and lately, a lot have come to PC.
PC, tonight at PC I spoke about resting in Matthew 11. We had almost half of the tier there. It was a great time of prayer. Afterward, a lot of fellowship. It was unusual fellowship. Not in a bad way, a very good way in fact. At the end, I noticed one of the guys went to his cell and put his head down and cried. This is something that isn't normal for them due to getting more harassment. I went in and began to talk to him. I asked if I could pray for him and he said yes. Some times I feel these guys are afraid to say no to me. Like maybe I would put a "curse" on them. But after I got done praying, they always feel God is taking care of them and feel better. He was approached by the thug, which came to PC by the way, and he apologize to him.
As I was walking away, the new kid asked if I would pray for him. He followed me to my cell and along came another thug behind him. I call him "Goldie Locks" (he has long dread locks) I asked him to stay and pray with us. I felt this was the only way that I could get a chance to pray with him and he said yes. After we were done, he had tears in his eyes. He hugged me and told me he needed that. I said, everybody needs God.
When we have a powerful prayer meeting like that, it effects the whole tier. God has really blessed these men. I am very proud of so many of them for standing up for Christ.
I wish I could be here and have the heart and faith of Paul. We have such a great time in the Lord, but then the down times get harder and harder. I just want to go home.
7-13 Sunday- I finished my fast around midnight. Three days of hunger and prayer. It was good.
We got 6 new roll ins today. The noise got a couple levels higher. Tonight they are all getting acquainted. They will talk all night.
7-14 Monday- I am so ready to come home. Today was a slow day. As always, talking to you was the highlight of my day. I pray that tomorrow is my day to get out.
It is the night before court. This time tomorrow I could be sitting at Shawn's and talking to you. I am not as nervous as normal. I normally would have a rapid heart rate and a little chest pain. I have to just let it happen.
Well, there you go!
Days just prior to release, God dedicated to the hard core "thugs" to get into their heart.
No, we will truly never know the full impact of all this.
Lord, I can't wait to meet the men that you called to yourself through the hardest thing we ever had to live through. Thank you Father for all you have done.
PEACE BE STILL - AND THE OCEAN OBEYED |
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