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I just wanted to post and tell everyone just how much God has changed my life. And how very grateful I am. I cannot imagine my life every being as it was back then.
God has really given me so much peace. The things from my past no longer haunt me. (bad childhood, abusive relationship, feelings of no worth, ect...) Instead God has replaced them with such a need to help others. I no longer look at people and see memories of things that happened to me, instead I see people who need to be loved. Who need to find Jesus, a greater understanding of why we are really hear. And I want to help them. I have so much love for people I don't even know, it is so unlike me. To the point that people around me have noticed it and commented. I really dont care anymore about what others will think of me for being nice to people that others wrinkle their noses at. I never want to be like that. In Gods eyes we are all the same.
God has also given me a greater appreciation for my children. I find myself praying more with them and for them throughout the day. I thank him all the time for them. And have made it a big deal to tell them everyday just how much I love them and hug them everyday. I have 2 teenagers, and they sometimes want to "be like normal kids". And get very angry when they cant wear this or go do that or stay out this long. But in the end God has made me very strong in my decision that we will all live right. (I always tell them that everyone in the house has the same rules, mom, dad, no matter your age or gender. The rules are the same.) So in those things I do not compromise, where as I would bend under the slightest pressure before. I had someone this week tell me that I was wrong to try to change things now, that the problem was that these rules were not in place their whole life and it was unfair to them. Maybe so, but I know the reward will be great for them someday. And they will be thankful that I was not the kind of parent who did nothing. They already love family night. squirt gun fights and just being silly together. I guess God just made me see that I needed to take time for them. And I have to say it is so rewarding when I get in the van with all of them and turn on the radio and the christian radio station plays a song they all like and I see them dancing in their seats to it. Those are the times when I think God is so good. Thank you for this.
I thought at one time that I would love to work with in some aspect with abused women. I felt that this was something I really understood and could relate to. And really wanted to pursue something further in that. Well it seems that God has other plans. I now serve in a Saturday Sunday School Outreach at my church. I went into it thinking "good I want to serve God in as many ways as I can." and that was my whole reason for doing it, not because God would reward me for it, or someone would see me doing it, but because I was eager to serve God. And I have to say God has really touched me with this outreach. I love the children so much, and it blesses me to see them every week. And I love seeing the parents, who come to watch. I have to say I get way more from Saturday Sunday School then anyone. I know that God wants me to serve in some type of children outreach. And I am so happy to be a worker and not a leader. I know people always want to be in charge of something, not me, I will be the little worker . I'm fine with that and happy to do it.
The biggest change in my life is the change in my husband. It has been over a month since he drank. He spent his first 4th of July in 18 years sober. And he said he didnt miss drinking. While we were their at Sawdust Days, we saw many of our childrens friends parents drinking/drunk. And he realized that he didnt like it. He asked me if that was how he acts when he is drinking, and I told him yes it was. ( afraid I would hurt his feelings, but at the same time feeling like he needed the truth.) He had a softball tournament last weekend, and he played 6 games and never touched a drink, even tough all of his friends were drinking. Then said he wanted to go to Sunday night service as a family. Getting him saved my take some time. He is afraid to raise his hand because he thinks he will be called up to the front or asked to stand. But at least he is talking to me about it. And our bond with each other has become so strong. He told me the other day he likes the new me alot more. At first it shocked me but after I thought about it for awhile I smiled and thanked God for that.
More then anything, God has given me this confidence. That I can do anything with His help. I feel better about me and about life in general. I have hope for better things. Something I never really felt before. It is great. God is Great! |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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Everyone should read this --------------
I am so blessed by God, you, your family! We love you all very much!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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Everyone should read this --------------
I am so blessed by God, you, your family! We love you all very much!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxox |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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So happy for you! Wonderful testimony! :) So many breakthroughs in your life! Hooray/Hallelujah! |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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| this is wonderful!!!!!! God is going to take care of the hubby part lady, trust Him. Ken, my hubby, is living proof of that :) |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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So good Shelly, thanks for sharing....it gives hope to people that doing things God's way works and hass great reward. xoxoxoxoxoxo love you tons&tons |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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| Thank you all for you kind words. My son Jackson (15) just read this blog. He came and told me he knows its the right thing, its just hard to live right when everyone else is living wrong. He said mom I raised my hand during prayer on Sunday. I wanna live right. What a blessing to hear that! |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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| ohhhhhhhh wow!!!!!! Tell Jackson I love him and am praying for him!!!! |
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| July 21, 2008 |
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Shelly, what an inspiration...a testimony to just how God and His Love works...It really does give hope to people...thanks for sharing...May God continue to move in your life and your family's lives...Bless you! |
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