How much longer am I expected us to hold on? How much longer must I go on? Working two jobs endless hours to support not only myself but an unemployed miserable husband who sits at home all day doing who knows what... How much longer? I fear I am loosing hope of him ever finding employment. He just sits here all day, in and out in and out. Why? What is Gods plan here? Does He even have one?

Did I do something to displease Him? Have I done wrong somehow?

I need him to have a job. Not because of the money. But because of his emotional state.

I can not do this much longer. I am loosing patience. I am loosing sympathy. I am loosing my husband... He is no longer the man I knew, he is someone else. Short tempered uncaring self centered ...  What do I do?

Am I to sit back and let him work through this on his own? Mean while we build up debt higher and higher?

I am trying not to be angry. But I can not help it...

Lord, Lend me the patience and the sympathy that I seem to be laking in these trying times.

The last thing I want is for this to ruin my marriage. I love him but I can not continue to love him if he refuses to help him self. I can not be expected to continue to do that... can I?

Lord, hold my hand on this path...