I love looking at the sky. As a child, I can remember laying on the grass watching the clouds change shape. I still do that. Instead of laying in the grass, however, I usually look at it when I'm driving, or standing at the bus stop with my kids. The sky always know what is on my mind. Years ago, when taking my kids to daycare, I drove a road that had a bend. At the time, there weren't any buildings at that bend so you had a windshield full of sky. That view in the morning was always so cleansing to my spirit. After 45 minutes of rush hour traffic, however, that feeling often was replaced with stress. Working inside, staring at a computer screen offered little time to look at the sky. The additional stress of a long drive home was often overwhelming. But every evening I drove that road again. The sky looked so different, but still, I was washed over with the same peace that I experienced in the morning. During a particularly difficult day following a miscarriage, the sky was full of clouds. I was in a hurry to get home to beat the impending rain. On that day, although in rush hour traffic and focused on my grief, I looked up at one particularly large cloud that caught my attention. The cloud was pure white and seemed to almost be sitting on the road ahead of me. An image of a child's face appeared in that cloud. A face so beautiful and soft. I found immense comfort in that image. So did my husband. Although we were in separate cars, miles apart, we shared a spectacular moment with our child through an image in a cloud. A message strong enough to steal our attention from the traffic and our grief. A heavenly sign that our baby was taken care of and that we needn't grieve anymore. The picture in my mind is as clear, and as calming, as it was on that day. Time went by, and the kids changed daycares. I no longer drive around that bend. But the sky is everywhere, and continues to send me loving messages of hope and peace. Every morning, before the sun touches the sky, I am anticipating the beauty, and the peacefulness of another perfect sky. |