Some times I do. Sorry, when I see what is going on around me and to those I love, I sometime try to tell God what to do, how to do it and then realize how wrong I am.

I did that this past week with my cousin Tonya and my best friend T.

Here is the story about Tonya:

Have you ever tried to tell God what to do and realize you have no right to do so. I did. Boy Wednesday and Thursday of this week were really difficult for me and I was telling God, You have to heal Tonya. You have to do this and you have to do that and all of a sudden on Thursday afternoon I realized, God is not in control if I am telling Him what to do.

WOW, did I have to stop and ask for forgiveness! God is so good and He understood my heart more than I did and more than I ever will. For God knows each of us from the inside out and the outside in.

So Thursday night at our Thursday Night Bible Study and Prayer meeting. Confession time. You know what they say, "Confession is good for the soul." Well, I have to say that in this case it was.

I told our group that I had been trying to control every aspect of every problem and I was trying to tell God how things should be done. Then came the prayer. God let Your will be done. You know you mean it, yet how helpless it makes you feel, yet how secure you feel knowing that God is in control.

So Friday came and Tonya went to Vanderbilt to see new Doctors. And yes, there was hope.

I know God heals and performs miracles everyday. I also have to admit that God has given physicians a brain, knowledge and hopefully wisdom. The doctors told her there is a new treatment, and they will be giving her the first one this Tuesday, it is a new type of chemo. I only pray it is not as invasive as most other meds and chemo is. They will be doing a 2nd treatment in two weeks and the dr said that after the 2nd treatment she should be back to normal.

He also told her that she is the one who has to have hope. and I pray she will have hope.

Like I said it is wonderful when you realize how God knows better. It's wonderful that I have friends and church family to remind me of such things when I forget, due to pain, worry, fear, all the things we are suppose to overcome and can over come in Christ.

I guess I am just normal to allow my emotions to sometime get in the way with the things that I know.

and with T, when I gave it over to God, well, lets say it this way, she is off all the machines and she is awake, joking, and telling everyone how much she loves us all.

So when you think you know more than God, Do like me and THINK AGAIN!!!!