I can't even remember when I first noticed that God started speaking to me through dreams. It's been so long. I never really told anyone my dreams until after the dream would come true. I use to tell my mom sometimes but really only kept it to myself. Even when I drifted from the Lords path I still had dreams of significance. As a matter of fact that's how I ran back to church when God gave me a very serious and profound message through my dream. It was the first night I spent in our new house in Florida. It was an experience I will never forget. that's when I new my time was running out. God wanted me back. When I came back to the Lord and I got to the place where you feel so close to the Lord. Sort of like you can just look over your should and feel him there. Where you just feel him throughout the day. Where you are in your car and don't even bother to put music on because all you want to do is constantly talk to him. Where his presence just amazes you day by day. Where you feel the Holy Spirit guiding you completely. yes that place. that wonderful place in your walk. It feels so safe. Well about a month or even more ago I had a dream that would be a big change in someone's life. I don't want to mention their name here. But this person and his family has had such an impact in my life. I only know them a year and I feel like I know them a lifetime. He has been a mentor to me and my marriage. I can't even explain it. Well I had the dream and I felt an urgency to tell him. I knew if this dream would come to pass it would be good news for them but sad for me. Well first thing that morning I went and told them. It was my first time ever telling anyone I dreamt with them. I was skeptical because I thought what if its the first time that my dream does not come true. I will look like a fool to such a spiritual man. To someone who is so many spiritual levels above me. But yet I felt this dream had so many details and such significance god would want me to tell him. So when I told him - he asked me if my dreams come true and I said about 90% of them. And he promised me that if it came true I would be the first to know. That same day when I got home I told my mother that I told him about the dream and she gave me a silly look like I should not have said anything. I began to doubt myself and actually make jokes. Then I felt so convicted for doing that. I actually went to pray and sobbed for hours - god humbled me because he gave me something - i started out right then I just fell apart. I should have just returned home and went to pray because what I did was supposed to be between me and god. But I wasn't sacred with what god had given me. In my prayer that night I asked for forgiveness and said that to please not let what I did, the doubt that I felt or jokes that I made affect the outcome of that dream. That to please let that blessing come to them even 10 times more. Well this morning I went to church and received the news that the dream came true. I have been crying ever since. I have been crying for so many reasons. My spiritual mentor is moving. I have come to love every member of his family so much. When I arrived home after church and had a moment to myself I felt the holy spirit and just wept so much because it is so humbling when god gives you a message. When he shows you that you are so special to him that he allows you to have experiences like this. But also when he teaches you a lesson to never doubt what he can use you for. When he is urging you to speak, deliver a message or anything, do it. don't doubt. If you doubt you will miss out on so many special blessings and experiences in your walk. I feel like God is constantly trying to give us fruit. As we walk he walks besides us trying to hand it to us. We see it but we don't take a moment to stop and take a bite out of it. If you just take one bite, the blessings will follow. God Bless......................... |