I'm coming up on the 10th anniversary of my divorce and part of me longs to throw a party. Odd reaction, I know. Most people celebrate wedding anniversaries.. I celebrate the anniversary of getting my freedom back; but then you just had to be there. Not to be melodramatic, but I know in my heart that I had I stayed in the marriage, I wouldn't be alive today to be typing this blog.

I was challenged by a friend to write this blog about what I had learned in ten years since, but I came to the conclusion that maybe I have spent too much time looking back, rehashing the past. It comes to a point that even when you think you've let go of the past (and God has done an amazing job of healing a world of hurt) that you still keep dragging those ghosts and echoes of past voices into the present with you.

So instead I choose to look to the future. I know Cheryl had just posted a blog using Jeremiah 29:11

This reminded me of the hopes I have for the future and the dreams God has placed in my heart that I hold dear. Six years ago, God gave me a vision and a word that he had a husband for me, a man of his choosing. I didn't think when it happened I would still be waiting now, but I know that the right man is worth waiting for. I wrote out the words as He gave them to me on a Saturday morning and keep them in my Bible as a reminder of His promise. The full content I have shared with less than a handful of people but wanted to share a part of it tonight; I'm not sure why, but perhaps someone else needs to read it that I don't know about.

The Father raised my chin with His finger and smiled,

"My Child, I created you, I know all that you need."

He looked at the box and the bow unravelled.

The front wall fell without a sound.

Out stepped a man,

A man with compassion in his eyes and a ready smile on his lips

A man with a humble spirit and safety in his arms.

The Father smiled at me and said,

"Child, I know all things, even the secret desires of your heart."

I fell to my knees and wept in gratitude.

Then I saw the man kneel beside me and worship the Father with his tears,

our eyes locked and softly we whispered "I love you."

I'm in an exciting time in my life. I am getting to know someone now and don't know where it is going yet. I know he is a Godly man but it is way too soon to be thinking about if he is THE one. All I can do is remember that God is faithful and doesn't forget His promises, even though His sense of timing is not ours. But He always comes through.