Hi Ayla, where do I start. First of all you are not who people say you are but who God says you are. You are strong, a mighty woman of God, a loving mother, a wondeful wife, a child of the most high....I can go on & on. I know how it feels to have people speak negative words into your life, but that comes from the pits of hell. You see there's something very special about you rather you see it in yourself or not the devil knows it so it's his job to try & get you to walk away, think less of yourself & not be who God has called you to be. I've been through alot in my life, as a child my teenage years. I thought know one loved me, not could ever love me, I'm just learning at the age of 37 to love myself. I was molested starting at the age of 4 until I was 13 by my biological father, my uncle & my cousin. Til this very day my mom is still with him. I was abused physically, emotionally & mentally. I started having kids when I was 16, my family would always tell me I wouldn't be nothing & know man would ever want me with kids.......that was a LIE. You see I grew up thinking this & it made my way really hard, until I found Jesus, He loves me & shows me love & lets me know I am worth something, I have value. It took me many years to be able to look at my dad & be in under the same roof as him, but I'm here to tell you that GOD is able, if we just cry out to Him. I don't know what you've been through or what your going through
but just know  Ayla you have a friend in me.

Be encouraged, I love you
Racquel