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| Fading Joy...(no longer a monologue) update |
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JOY: [looking up into the sky]
"Hello? God? It's me. Joy. Can you hear me?"
[pause]
"Hello?"
[pause]
"I know you're up there... they tell me you are but.... you seem so far away. Why are you so far away?
[pause]
"I just want to talk for a few minutes. Like we used to. Do you remember how we used to talk? What... what was it we used to talk about? I've forgotten. Beautiful things, I... I know that, but... I can't ...I can't quite ..."
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" I dont remember how I got here. Isn't it strange? I must have fallen... no that's not right. It was like a slow ... descent. I ... I don't know... I can't remember all the steps, but... I don't want to be here any more"
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"God ... can I come home? I want to come home, but ... I don't know how. I can't hear you, I ... I need your help."
[pause]
"Won't you whisper in my ear just one more time? Please?
GOD: [with arms open wide]
"I've never stopped speaking to you , dear one, and I never will. You are mine, and I have called you by name. I'm waiting for you... let's talk ... about beautiful things, about ... everything ... You are home.
(for my Amanda Joy)
Update: This Sunday my Amanda Joy has agreed to go to church . Its a diffrent church then mine but one she used to go to. At first she didnt want to go alone but I told her I'g go with her... that seemed to make a big difrence...at least I hope so. Your prayers are appreciated. Pray that she is able to connect or re-connect with friends that are beleivers, as well as hear God. Thank you MC family :D |
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| November 09, 2008 |
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| wow... |
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| November 09, 2008 |
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WOW GREAT BLOG,SO BLESS.THE JOY OF THE IS OUR STRENGHT.
LORD GIVE ME MORE JOY |
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| November 09, 2008 |
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| He hears you and you can come home He is waiting for you. |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| Wish we could see him waiting, arms wide open, pleading to come... We lose sight of this so easily sometimes! |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| DITTO TO THAT! |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| Charlie, Answer, Todd, Mike, and Denise... Thank you so much for your comments. My lovely daughter Amanda Joy... my oldest, is so struggling. But...she is asking for help in finding God again. Your prayers for her are greatly appreciated. It seems both my girls are having a bad time of it. And so ... of course, that means I am also. Knowing you are all here to listen and to pray blesses my heart. God bless you. |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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Robin,
When I was saved the first time, I used to talk to my Jesus but I was told He didn't answer - except in the bible. I read the bible but I was taught not to believe the promises. The rules were for me but not the promises.
Eventually, I stopped talking to Him about what I wanted to talk about and just said the things I was allowed to say, "Help me not be such a sinner all the time. Forgive me of my sins. Help me win souls for Christ. Forgive me of my sins. Help me be a better example to the lost. Oh, did I mention? Forgive me of my sins." It was all the stuff I knew He wanted me to pray for and none of the stuff I needed to talk to Him about.
I wanted a wife but I didn't think He wanted me bothering Him with that kind of thing. As long as I married a saved woman, that's all He cared about. The fact that women wouldn't give me the time of day was beyond the scope of prayer. I was pretty limited in what I could pray about so I stopped doing my duty to God - I stopped praying altogether. Except one of my final prayers to God came from something I read in the bible:
"For whom the Lord loveth, He chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom He receiveth."
I remember praying, "LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE, DAMMIT!"
That was one of the last prayers I prayed before I turned my life over to Satan. Satan was the one who seemed more eager to give me the desires of my heart than God was. What a deception!
Thank God, after living my life for Satan, Jesus came back and saved me. He was good enough to show me every mis-step I had taken back in the old days. He taught me how to read the bible - not as a rule book but as a book of promises. God is good but don't depend on church people to tell you that. That's something God Himself teaches to those who are smart enough to listen.
The [pause] in your blog is not God's silence. It's our deafness. God is talking to us all the time (I've come to learn) but it's up to us to hear Him.
Good blog, my sister,
Rob |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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Rob.... "The [pause] in your blog is not God's silence. It's our deafness. God is talking to us all the time (I've come to learn) but it's up to us to hear Him."
Wow.... thank you. |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| Robin, if you or your chldren can not just know in their head but in thier hearts that trials, struggles and pain are not the absence of God in our life, but rather His presence can be seen, felt and heard in times like these. I have wished to die only to realize that it wouldn't solve anything. Joseph must have thought to himself "the more I serve Him the worse it gets!?" What God is doing is allowing the flesh to die. It is not pleasant, but the rewards will be well worth it. Just keep loving your girls and pointing them to Jesus His love will break through. |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| Brother Todd.... *big sigh* His love WILL break through... won't it?... Thank you... |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| WOW thanks! |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| Your welcome Becky.... :) |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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Awesome!
"I know you're up there". Wow! That line in itself says much about the way most people view prayer. Too bad the church has taught us that God is external, sitting on the throne with His arms crossed in disgust at our behavior.
I think a better way of saying it is that we should bow our heads when we pray.....that way we can look at God!
I loved the dialogue and your open heart. It's a beautiful thing.
I hate to plug one of my own blogs here, but you may enjoy this, it's quite relative: God Never Stops Transmitting
Thank you! |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| Michael... Thank you so much for your encouraging words. My heart... wow... what a kind thing to say, Michael. God bless you. |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| Wow this is what I was just telling God today, I just want the Joy back! |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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| oops I should have finished my thought. That's pretty much what He said it's still there He never left! |
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| November 10, 2008 |
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AMAZING GOD.....HE IS ON THE MAIN LINE.
Speak to me Lord. |
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| November 11, 2008 |
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| You have a great talent for the not-so-obvious. "God will never leave us nor forsake us" it's a promise we often forget when we slide into our own world. Good stuff...thanks. |
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| November 11, 2008 |
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| Angela, Terry, and Ed... thank you so much for your kind and encouraging words. I appreciate you all. God bless you. |
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| November 12, 2008 |
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| Ah, the update is encouraging! |
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| November 12, 2008 |
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| I will be praying God leads your family to the right church. Your daughter is a smart christian girl she will descern who would be a good group to be around. Good for her. |
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| November 12, 2008 |
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| Wow Robinjoybabypie loved it! |
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| November 12, 2008 |
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| same here i agree with that all the way and am praying for amanda joy ok love u robinjoybabypie i love u the mostiest of anyone in the world besides jesus christ alright lots of hugs and kisses from ur sister in christ jesus and ur real sister to u in ur life and ur my real sister to me in my life and my sister in christ jesus amen amen |
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| November 12, 2008 |
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Thank you so very much everyon... your prayers.... they are like hugs. God bless you all.
Much Love
Robin |
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