| A Simple Heart to Heart |
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So today I babysat from 7am-1pm. What I would consider, a good day. I had my typical Wednesday Bible study with one of my girlfriends and on the way there I decided to tell God what's up. However, I made a pit stop before heading there at Value City to glance at the shoe section and even though there were some cute items and cheap prices for some reason I felt conviceted about buying anything....so I didn' t.So as I'm driving to Panera to meet up with my friend, I'm telling Him about my life, my stresses, fears, and worries when I find myself in tears with a realization of simply ultimately trusting in Him. It's funny how we find these pressures and stresses in our lives when we put them on ourselves. Because, if we were to trust Him as our Father than He would simply handle everything for us, with our best interest in mind. It's amazing. It's like he would be the traffick director and we would follow His yellow sign. Simple. But it's a concept that I rarely grasp and will probably take eternity to fully embrace. I love God. I love it when He simply invites me into His lap and asks me to empty my heart into His hands. I think everytime I choose to take Him up on His invite I'm left crying. Today I was grieving the loss of a father figure, for I've never really had one. Notice how I said grieving because that was all it was. I was thinking about how the closest model of what completely trusting someone that we would have on Earth would be our parents and our husband. Well...obviously I don't have a husband so my first thought was to my father, who lives in Florida, and then my mother. I know my mother's done the best she could, but I've never trusted her with much because I've always been so independent. I really want to give my kids chance that oportunity to trust me. To be a kid. Some consider that spoiling them, I consider it loving them. However this is not at all my point. After I was thinking about trusting in worldly things I went back to the concept of whole-heartedly trusting my Heavenly Father. It felt so good to put everything in His hands and understand and trust that He had it covered. I realized that in that moment I really needed to do that more often. I listen to him a lot. But just as in a friendship, you're not as connected if you're not doing the talking as well. So then my thoughts move to Panera and how it's one of my favorite places to eat. I got excited. And in that moment my Heavenly Father told me I could eat anything I wanted to, and not to worry about it.
How liberating.
Similar to when I visit my father in Florida. He is very carefree with money and pays for everything and for once, I am financially liberated (very different feeling from living with my mom, but a nice break). I always love that feeling, and it's always one of the very few things I miss about being in Florida with him.
How nice of my Heavenly Father to give me that gift.
4:6 And because you are sons, God has sent out the Spirit of his Son into our hearts, saying, Abba, Father. |
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