| I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO tired......... |
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I sit here tonight and and I am so very tired. I have so much on my plate sometimes it isn't funny. I try to take things slow like I told Bro Billy, to slow down and look around and see and hear what God has for me. But the kids need to go to the dentist, the grass needs mowed and the hedges trimmed, both vehicles need to have the oil changed and the Blazer needs the tires rotated, Terry is needing help trying to get ready for Girl Scout Camp at Douthat and the family is getting together for the 4th. On top of that I have people coming to me with their concerns. A lady at work wants to transfer, two guys are arguing about who has to pull pallets back, Shaun wants every feature changed out to get rid of the holiday and get ready for back to school, a friend says she and her husband may split up and she is depressed, Travis says we are getting hit by a group of professional shoplifters, and everyone is worried about freight backing up. I'm tired. So very tired.
Don't all these people know that! I have my own problems. My own worries and fears. I need to make sure all the bills are paid before they are due, I have to budget everything out and pray I don't mess it up. I worry about Allen and Abby, and am constantly thinking about what I need to do to make sure they are healthy, happy, safe, and provided for. I am always mindful of my wonderful wife, Terry, and her needs and concerns. She is truly my half that makes me whole.
I worry about all the things that I have done in the past. I hope that they are what I was supposed to do, and the things I messed up I hope don't come back to haunt me. Deep in my baggage there are things I am not proud of, things that were not very Christian-like, things that make me shudder today just to think about them. Even though I was saved at an early age (8), I fell into the world for a time. I have asked God to forgive me and I am sure he has, but those things still weigh me down. I am tired.So tired.....
What's that God? I don't quite understand..... You mean I don't have to be tired? I can let it go? But these are my problems God, not yours! My mistakes. My responsibilities. My fears. What's that God? I can put them down? But, what about... Just put them aside? But God, what about my past? Isn't it bad? What's that God? I can lay down and rest? I can find peace and comfort? Ok, God, I will try. I'll just set it down before you. I will trust you to bring me through this. You are so gracious and loving, Lord. Thank you! Thank You!!!! I am glad I can find rest and comfort in you. You are my Tower of Strength!! Thank you!!!! Thank you for being there to give me rest....
11:28 Come unto me, all [ye] that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
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